too tired to blog but i just wanna say, morning was bad, trng was great..thanks gOofy! ;)

i feel so demented today.this morning.i woke up wif a bad mood.dunno y.n i was very hungry this morning.n i feel like singing out loud.like there's something in my head that wouldn't go away but i dun noe what it is.i tried to find out but it kept hiding from me.whenever i am depressed, i think of you.whenever i am happy, i wish you were here. but never once did it happen. i feel bored.i hate it. my life is like a routine. train everyday.leave home at the same time.travel the same route.walk the same way. the worst thing that can happen is that i dun get to go for centralised trng.n to china.n i will hate U.let me swear at u. i need to let it all out before i die from supressing my feelings. U suck.U suck too much. U dun mean your words any bit.U are so useless although u think u r not. U have an attitude. U suck.U think u know best. U r a loser.

friday is coming soon! *freaking out* few more hours to game..i wonder how we are gonna fare this time..hahA.. ;) oh how i miss U...but as long as i know you are well,im well too..*sicK in the HeaD*

*grins* *panick* i saw a brown envelope labelled NUS when i came back from trng just now. i stared at it for a while,fondled wif the envelope and slowly tore it open.Then i saw the word "aptitude"..hahA..ok lar,i have to go for the architecture aptitude test THIS FRIDAY.Im so panicky ok..although im quite happi..actually i dun noe if im happi or not..but i was feeling quite nervous...like slowly reading thru the 2 page letter..so yar loh..dun know to be glad or not..but anw,the chance is here,so just take it rit.. =) the interview part is the one i dun really look forward to..interview..what else do they do rit..ask you questions,look at you from head to toe..i dun really like..haHa..den for the aptitude test,must bring scissors,tape,glue....so you can roughly guess what you are gonna get...maybe construct something out of paper..i sure hope something is able to pop out of my mind at that point in time.haHa..today's trng got lots of pple..all the u19 national players back...include some national players too..so like so rowdy and unusual..haHa..esp the toilet after trng..wah piang..like market place..oh well,but at least we finally have some attendance..n today,it seems like the team was split into 3..haHa..the old ones(like me), the ITE gals and the national players..suddenly i feel so out of control..meaning like i dun feel as impt anymore..haHa..not that i was so impt b4 this but...u noe...yar..but it should be a good thing rit...that's why,the key to survival is to adapt..adapt...adapt...sure hope that every trng we would all get closer and bond better. =) i saw Granny's Big Game on TV..its a netball competition for the family, including a grandparent..i think its a really great idea for the family to take part n win something so i suggested to Ji..but he so not on...nvm,i intend to ask esther n justin n i just hope that all of us can agree to it cuz its such a great and special thing to do..u noe..wif your grandparent! to get them involved in a sport! i think that's really cool n maybe a once in a lifetime experience...haHa..so now,just have to pray hard that everyone can make it n have the right attitude! =) ok,wish me all the best for my test n interview k..although mum say this course got no future...but den,you create your own future rit...wif your own hands..*yeaH*

i feel much better after today's trng..maybe its something to do wif the weather cuz it was cooling due to the rain earlier on but the field was pretty good and i had quite a good time..partly cuz i could do a bit of high ball after so many tries and get a couple of good shots in...Anna took us for trng cuz coach got DINNER..but it was fun anw..6 round plus 700 skipping first..i exceeded 6 mins..haHa..too long nv run that fast liao...aYe..but nvm de la...i alwaz feel a bit afraid when have to do a round in less than 2mins..hEe..before trng, 2 pple from Suria came..shd be producers i guess...n interviewed coach n mummy cuz we are having a part in a Suria show! yeah,its about a malay gal whose dream is to become a footballer..heard her name is Siti..12 years old only..a striker or goalkeeper wanna-be...so mummy will be having most of the parts...but its nice n a new experience for all of us in u19..feeling excited!! =) that will only be on the 1st and 2nd of may thou but its showing on the 23rd or 28th when we are away in China..loLx..we get to watch a video of that thou!! oh manz,suddenly when i think of such stuff,life gets so exciting...drums tmr! taekwondo tmr! driving on sunday! yaY!!! but got lots of bills to pay oso..haHa..nvm,alwaz look on the bright side of life rit!! so,this rounds up today..national team back oredi..i think they lost all their matches *sheEpish grin* no ok,im not being xing zai le huo or what ok...not my problem anw what..haHa..from now onwards its trng every week day..looking forward?? haha..we'll see... ;)

my life sarks manz..haiz..do you know how it feels like to try ,try ,try and try a million times yet still see no sign of improvement..it doesn't matter what i am referring to but its totally irritating and frustrating the hell out of me..i keep telling myself that i have to persevere, keep going, but when you continually show so dismal stuff all over and over again,you get tired rit..but the point of persevering is not to get tired easily..oh well,maybe i do really lack perseverance..i do feel bitter...and i mean bitter..that taste...in my mouth,all over my head and totally over my mood..and attitude...that is not good..it is not me to quit right now..quitting should never be a resort,not even the last...winners don't quit,quitter dun win..*isH* these past few days were bad for me..i mean with regards to my family...having cold war with dad...n its totally his fault...not mine...im not being so egoistic or what but he jolly well knows that it is his fault and he heck cares...so y shd i care too much...n its when u r at loggerheads wif someone that you suddenly realise that someone else close to you actually cares so much about you,only that you realise it now..aYe..how farnie can life be..my architect aspiration is over and gone..sometimes when i look at those nice and attractive architecture,i just can't help but glue my eyes to them...anw,nothing to be sad about..doesn't mean you cant be an architect if you didn't study architecture in U rit..*frowNs* but anw,it is possible...some way or another..i know..if i really want...enuf about U and stuff..sarks totally..im not a bad student k, i like to learn new stuff,but stuff that i m interested in..which can be uncountable....*weEeeeE* ok,anw,played badminton wif angeline today at TN...pro arh she...forehand backhand all zai...quite surprised that i did not lose my touch..haHa..after like so long...hMM...since lower sec i think...or upper pri..but pri sch days were alwaz badminton basketball tennis table tennis one leg catching and all over again....v fun..those were the days..no worries..only sports!! haHa...but one has to grow up...and when one does,the fun is gone...haHa..unless u know how to make ur life so chong shi....which is a real good thing...keeps you busy learning new stuff..that's what life is all about!! no slacking...bzbzbzbzbzbz...nice....no time for relationships too...haHa.. ;) some pple stay they hate being in love..i wonder what they are thinking...its a great feeling to be in love...n it changes you..makes you appreciate yourself more..and teaches you how to care for others more than you care for urself..n unless you do that,it can only lead to a break-up....Lol...wth am i toking about..SICK!! my shin damn pain...must be cuz nv stretch...n today's trng oso boring..maybe cuz i din really perform well lar..but so few pple...since monday..sianZ...our team like no mo qi..i feel...like so unfamiliar...SICk!! i want to dao everybody can!!!!!

i.o.i.o. i went for trng yesterday.luckily we did not have to run like crazi but we had to run wif the ball ard the field 4x.freedom of expression wit the ball that is..do anything wif the ball..that's nicer n i certainly do prefer that..haAHa..n we had the food to ourselves!! the samosas were great! althou i ate only 1 but...its damn nice...esp after trng rit..haHa..v few pple but we had quite a gd time lar..now eb trngs on wed n fri..so me can go on weds! n got allowance le...i hope its not as stingy as the one im getting at u19..lol..but its down to serious work now..i wonder how many rounds we have to run on weds hor...ahaha..u can't escape from fitness anyhow...so its settled,i didn't get into arch...in that case, i dun wanna study in NUS either..or SMU...the latter i m not that certain but not NUS since there's nth nice abt other courses..n i haven't started my driving lessons!! *sad* mum like so hesistant abt me driving n needless to say,dad wun fork out a single cent..what fish...but its sooner or later what...so y not nw..huMph..n i just found out from angeline that jtrl plays for "free kicks CDC"..ahaha..cute name...and it was only yesterday that i found out that angeline knew jtrl,jtrl knew angeline,but i dun noe if jtrl knows that angeline knows me or the other way rd..Ahahaha...but i guess its all known to everyone now..loLx....nth much to do now that's y so free to blog..hEe..today's assignment quite easi so finished liao...i guess i shd start calling John..my driving instructor..to be....it's alwaz great to try new stuff rit..althou there is the hesitation in the beginning.but once u get into it,u do look forward to it..just like taekwondo n drums..damn it..i have to pay $100 this month for my drums cuz you get FINED for late payment...5 bucks....yamaha sarks totally...its only $$$$$$ that's overflowing their minds...n my hp bill arrived yesterday together wif that "late payment warning"...wth.....$$ is really BIG huh....but as u used to say,do not let $$ control you...be the master of your $$$$ !!!!! i rule!!!! lolX...

yesterday's game was so entertaining,on and off the field.it was under a damn hot and fiery sun that we played against woodlands.they were fierce but so were so,although the damn hot weather wore us out.so on the field,there we were going into tackles,clearing the ball,attacking on both flanks.and off the field,there was a war of words.or should i say,wars of words,especially in the 2nd half.both coaches were practically swearing indirectly at one another,players were getting yellow cards on the field and the ref was accused of being biased.even the players on the bench started to get heated up.first time this has happened at braddell,i think,cuz there has never been a time when b shouted at his players to "bring that player down"..worse still,you could hear things like "go,break her leg" and so many more unbelievable hokkien,teochew or whatever phrases..the hot weather was also bad enuf and this had to happen.but we won in the end.and all of us had to go over to the other team for a friendly handshake with the coaches as they had initiated that first.in fact,just before the game ended,that was this one incident which just sparked greatest fury from woodlands.brother brought down a player and then hit her or something but the ref didn't see.so didn't i but i heard it from someone.that was when all the coaches of woodlands rushed onto the field and,so again,the war of words with the ref this time.at any time when their player fell,you could just hear something un-nice coming out.even though it wasn't a foul.haiZ.but fortunately it ended nicely with a handshake,whether sincere or not.u19 facing woodlands again a few weeks later.we won them in the league 4-1 but i do not really know this time round.a few of their players were injured after yesterday.i only played 1 half but i think i did ok..and there was no teamwork oso..as b said.anyhow,it's just one of the so many games we played and won,so just put it off your mind yar..after yesterday's drum lesson,where i was the only student,i somehow felt that i wanted to continue.no,i wasn't listening to my heart entirely.i was thinking too.i just couldn't simply give up now cuz i still want to and love to play.so i have to pay this month's fees which are long overdue.haHa.and taekwondo lesson was fun too.get to learn some new stuff like the high kick,single n double punch,horse-riding stance..haHa..v nice..but i have to say that the instructor is so damn strict.i saw him just kick the legs of some small kid who didn't do his stance properly..*whoA* i was like shocked.but yar,he demands a high standard cuz heard that he's highly skilled.went to korea b4 so....yar....n the gee looks damn nice can..but the belt thing ar,i feel so tight up at the waist..a little uncomfy..haHa..just have to get used to it..SO,my sat was pretty cool cuz i was so damn bz from morn to nite..haHa..i like..like my life is so full of things to do..good good...n next week got assignment for the whole week again..good good..earn $$$$...hEe..i guess i shd start thinking seriously about NAFA yar...hmMM....

lol.ya noe y me blogging now.cuz i nv go trng loh..bad example rit..haHa..haiZ..tmr got game against woodlands wellington.eb de.sure hope can play well..finally today i get to watch channel U 9pm..haHA..me this comp siao liao..every time go online will get many pop-ups and the thing is they are full screen.haHa..my comp going bonkers.i sure hope to get a tablet pc.damn cool can..all above 3K of cuz.but nice nice..i haven't receive my application letter.so....its friday oredi.dunno why like everyone expects me to get into U..what if....*ayE* anw,i got until 30th may to apply for nafa..that is if mum n dad agree la..i mean,if i can't get into U where can i go rit not..take things as it is..don't mull over what you have lost.if you have faith,you will find it again..good quote yar..dunno y but i do feel a bit guilty skipping trng now..ayE..but i just didn't have the mood to go for trng just now..shit..rem what Mrs Tay always says....do not listen to your heart,listen to your head..how could i forget..*isH* you will find that if you listen to your head,you will hardly regret..cuz it rules your heart..that's not for everyone i guess..but for me,most of the time it works..but now..wth manZ...i think i have been listening to my heart too much...its controlling me..and you know what...since feelings change like mood swings,you just can't help but be indecisive..huMph..i think i should start listening to that thing up there..CANNOT SKIP TRNG ANYMORE!!! i promise.and i will keep it.I hardly break promises you noe =) ok,yeah,my boots flew off the latch ya noe..the left one(i tink) of my silver umbro ones..got swept off by the mat(or whatever you call it)..so i bought another pair..haiZ...i think drum lessons are getting too expensive and not worth the money..and now i have to pay for the lessons..damn it loh..dad's not willing to pay..i dun wan to stop halfway cuz the book is finishing..but i really think its gonna be a few months b4 we complete the book cuz the teacher is so damn slow...maybe im losing interest..but u noe wat,everytime when i miss a drum lesson, either deliberately or not on purpose,and i start to ask myself if i really want to stop learning,the answer is alwaz no.i like it but its so not worth the money and to stop now, at this point in time, is like so wah piang..can't i just get over it..its so unfair..got to pay my hp bill,drums fee and what else....driving lesson fee??? i guess so..that's why i haven't started...anw,so bz this week..the whole week got assignment except for today..give me a break manz..next whole week oso got..so many things to worri about..but whenever i think of that nike commercial song,haha,it just brightens me up,at least for that moment..alwaz look on the bright side of life..=) and i just found out AGAIN that jay chou is simply the best singer ever..believe me! his voice is damn nice..just play his music on the hi-fi set...loud...wah lah...the ultimate enjoyment...i think guys wear pink damn nice..haha..esp pink shirts wif cartoon characters on it..nice yar...hEe...tmr me wear pink...hee..but its a gal wearing pink la.. ;)

it seems like every training we are gonna have fitness.at least 3 rounds.n with this freaking weather,you just can't stop dripping as you run.2mins per round.for me, it's quite tough cuz im always running like 2mins30s in TJ.and it seems like everyone runs that way too.so when coach said 2mins.6mins for 3 rounds,i was quite terrified.but you know what..all of us actually did it! seriously,i am quite surprised that i could make 1.5mins for a round today and all of us finished by 5.35mins,our best so far! *weE weEt* =) for me,it's like running at my max for the whole 3 rounds, so i really have no energy to sprint at the last 100m.that's my weak point.aYe.but we are all improving!! that's a good thing.i sure hope if all of us be consistent with our speed,we can definitely improve our fitness.although every time i start on the run,i just feel like i can't do it.im gonna be last.but in the end,i somehow manage to finish off pretty well,except for the sprinting part.haHa..oh well,Ikha wants the no 5 jersey too!!!! *arGh* haiz,i want no. 5!!!!!!!! i dun care!!!! lol....grow up dorK..oh well..as long as i can go to China..haHa..u know what,i was looking for my passport yesterday n found to my surprise that.............i actually looked damn cute in the photo u noe!!!! lolX...serious..i can't believe that was me either!! i must have grown so damn old...lolX...but i looked damn cute lar...wah piang..how i wish i look like that now..(!!) ok,n now im gonna look at my passport pic everyday...its by my bedside...hahA....grow up dork!! ahHHH,can't stand it....heE...n elmo damn cute oso.today she bought a new soft toy.a pig.(of all animals) and we named it pig pong!! haha..cuz its so round like a ping pong ball and since its a PIG,it is PIG PONG!! welcome to our world PIG PONG!! =) oh yar,elmo has another smaller puppy too..toy de lar...she named it piang piang!! haha....lol....must be cuz i keep saying wah piang..hahA..jk jk....but its a damn cute name can...haH...national team off to japan tonite..so we have the whole place to ourself..hAha..but still the same..i wonder how many rounds we are gonna run tmr...aYe...everytime b4 i run,i alwaz think that im not gonna finish all the rounds..but eventually,i just did it..oso dunno how lar...cannot give up easily dork!! =P

hmMm..that sicko J**** msged me yesterday,asking me if i have received my application results.that is not really the point.the point is,i have not received any letter.sigH.zhe mo ban..i dun wanna study in SMU.cuz like i do not see any further in what i will be studying there, which is economics and SocSc.its like so the norm.i do not like that.so just wait lar har..so many things happened this week,and its only wed.monday was like,wah piang,trng..fitness.tuesday,fitness.wednesday,prepare for thursday's fitness.hahA.my calf n groin damn achy manZ.left shoulder still damn pain loh.tsk tsk.dun noe wth is the prob..that monday goal was really memorable.yesterday Anna told me i shd play the way i played on monday everyday.hAha.i couldn't rem much abt monday's game except that i was really tired,lack fitness and could just hear my heartbeat the whole of that game.but i tink our side really did well.seems like now there's gonna be fitness every trng.2mins for one round.pple say that's too long for a national player.wah piang.i tink only 1 or 2 pple in TJ can run that fast.that's why.i alwaz tot 2mins was quite fast.now i know.its not acceptable!! the sprinting part is the worst.for me.like no energy to just add that extra spurt oredi.tsk.den got assignment on monday,tuesday n today.so tmr have to stare at the comp again.with my damn pain shoulder.the week before leaving for China,we are gonna have centralised training.for 1 week.n the schedule,as Titi said, was like the whole day.fitness,ballwork,fitness,ballwork,fitness,ballwork.........luckily i do not have sch.hAh.but clash wif my FTT.i tink that is not a prob at all.nowadays i really dun look forward to using the comp anymore.haHa.maybe cuz i feel damn tired when i stare at it too long.gtg ssc manZ.i oso dunno y,but sometimes i can be just so damn in the mood to play on the field n sometimes,i just can't do it.i tink it does take some time for me to realise what pple ard me are up to.i mean like,if a fren keeps asking you for help,do u continuously help or will u come to a point when u stop and think,is he or she just making use of me..haH..sometimes, u just can't be too nice,can u?yar,n something to note..i realise that i can't stand watching NKF Charity shows any further.dun u think those pple just suck.y risk your life n perform those BIG stunts to raise money...yyyyyyy????? n those prizes..so attractive but.....n i really detest that Cao Qi Tai...dun u tink he just suck...he thinks he is such a damn great host isn't it....just look at the way he exaggerates every single thing he says,every action of his...wah piang..i feel like just shooting him in the face..oh well,hmMm...yeah,n that conversation i had with Anna last nite..yeah..i tink she's quite nice le..alwaz ask abt me..like how's my U application..den she asked whether i was playing for U19 for this coming league..den i said no.playing for eb...den it was like...regina n angeline started to..."what????"...haHa...yar,anw mummy said i can play for club for national team but wth rit..of cuz play for club lar...national team is like...come on manZ..u r not invited..haH..yar,then anna suddenly asked, not playing for Home Utd? ahha..i was pretty taken aback by that qn cuz its like,so long ago..HOme Utd...so unfamiliar...n i dun feel at home at Home U..haHa..anw,now tat place is saturated wif so many players,go back for wat manz...like that loh..oh yar,i started to have a craving for Mr Bean's chocolate pancake!! nice!! but after eating it twice continuously,i felt a bit sian...haHa...wth rit..maybe once in a while lar hor...need to buy new boots...must bring 2 pairs to China..*isH*...if im going...heE...buy buy buy...haiZ...

yaY.went to Pasir Ris park just now.evening.ate that long dreamt of waffle chocolate(!) ice cream..wah piang..unbelievable taste..*whOOOo* luckily i ate b4 i went cycling..(burn calories =P ) finally i got to cycle..n the weather was pretty good too.it was windy n grey clouds looming..but not yet drizzling..haha...perfect! we cycled from one end of the park to the other like we usually do...i just love it manZ..riding fast,like tearing down the track at full speed...wind blowing against u..wah lah,what a feeling! =) when we were turning back towards the bicycle kiosk,just a few metres away,it started to drizzle!! n rained!! haiZ...it shd have rained earlier..its a great feeling cycling in the rain,n cycling fast in rain..den my dad kept hurrying me to cycle back faster..haiZ...dun noe what is romantic...haHa..v romantic de..trust me..when i was cycling,i could see the grey clouds at the horizon...just above the sea...v nice v nice...if cycle fast fast in the rain,can feel the wind blowing rain drops on ur face..wahHhhh....unfortunately,i had it only for a while..heE...i think its pretty romantic to walk in the rain..with or without an umbrella..wif ur loved one of cuz...damn nice can..or cycle wif ur loved one in the rain..greatest feeling..apart from the drenched feeling..loLx...den i took my own sweet time to walk back to the carpark,which was quite a distance away..haHa...while my parents n bro all ran..what manZ....dun noe how to enjoy walking in the rain..hAha..but it was a nice sight...been a long time since i had such an experience..(god must have heard my wish..) anw,i sure hope i burnt enuf calories for the day...haHa..went to hougang interchange for dinner...met Aunty Irene..alone..having dinner oso..ruth still in HC...haiZ..i dun even get to study for a day in HC n she got 3 years...loLx..not a v nice thing to say actually..haHa..budden,nth much de lar...just get over it..shirley played the violin for the past 2 times i saw her at church...suddenly got the urge to learn that too..hahA..i guess after my drums bah...$$$$$ is the problem..haiZ...i cannot let $$$ control my life..or shd i say,limit it...i am the master of my money!!! loLX...that was what i used to say..haHa..when i lost 60 bucks on betting.. ;) those guys loh...wah lah...haHa..but it was poor investment on my part..Lolx..aYe..v fast gonna be may liAo...expenses rising!!! income rising less than proportionately!! needs increasing!! savings damn unstable...i need financial help!!! haHA...i shall solve my own problem...*isH* may i have a good dream tonite..i love to dream... =)

ervin yang found me on friendster.u noe that ervin.haha.i can just crack up when i rem those days in sch.lower pri.bullying him.lol.den i tried to find other pri sch mates thru him..ended up having a headache..ok,this is not that headache but "headache"..haHa..like sooOO many cedar pri pple but i tink mostly not from my class de lar..haHa..cuz all dun recognise..ai yo,hopefully can find those i know.or better still,they come find me.haHa..v de sian le..next week gonna be quite busy cuz got work coming in,den got usual stuff to do.i wanna start driving soon..*sulK* wanna go URA too..wanna go that Hilary JOnes drum clinic..(anybody interested??) haha...$$$$$$$..loLx..wanna go park cycle..like so long nv qu le...den get to eat that waffle ice-cream..ahHa..chocolate!! oh yar,now i really love that JOlibean pancake..u noe the one wif peanut or kaya or chocolate..round round de..omgoodness...the choc n kaya one damn nice!! *WHoOo* HOW I wish it was right in front of me now..haha..so,next time go any shopping mall,first thing>>>JOlibean!! hmMm..still can't get that imood to work le..haiZ..jtrl,all ur fault..=P actually u dun have anything to do wif my inability..haha..what to eat for dinner?? hmMM...haiZ..everytime only think of eating..one more hr to go..aYe..me goonnaaa get new contact lenses!!haha..this time its monthly de..n more comfy too..*isH* my left shoulder alwaz aching when i type too much..lao le..haha..christine looked me up too! cedar sec de christine naharita..i cldn't find her on friendster but she found me..ahaha..do i blame her for my inability?? NO.meet up one fine day ok..hEe..MU vs Birmingham..u noe that birmingham striker..err..that so damn white guy..haaha..damn it..what's his name..aye,that guy on-loan from chelsea..yeah,i think he sarks too much..i hope his name doesn't appear on the scoresheet tonite..haH..still can't rem his name..shyt..FORSELL..just rem fossil...haH..oh yeah...he sarks manz..just look at him..wah lah...ok,im damn hungry u noe..testing my patience..damn it..my messenger not working..haha..ok its working...looking forward to next week!! (getting application results..shHHhhh....) =)

so much for a "great day"...the disappointment ends tonite...i hate this feeling..i have to get rid of it...it aren't staying wif me forever...

boo.guess wat!?! i gotta me test result yesterday...lunchtime..dad(again..) came from office (and the letter box..??!!) and handed me the result..hah..i dunno y but i couldnt stop giggling when i saw that slip of paper..loLx..tickles me even now..yar..i passed loh..haH..i expected to actually..how could i not pass when i spent 40 MINS on a simple piece of paper!!??!!(rit not,ting..hah..if u r reading tis)....*coCky*..lolX..but that's gd lar..once n for all..next up,FTT!! haha...so exciting...den can start driving..gonna get my PDL!! ho..ho..today game wif uwc...i sort of have some confidence..but i dunno how long im gonna last in the game..cuz alwaz get sub..haH..nvm,take things as it is...its gonna be a great day!! =)

hmM...i tink knowing how to handle and relate to people is v impt..i mean,u have to know the right and suitable way of talking and creating a friendly relationship with another person..and for each person,it differs.if u fail to handle such fragile relationships with care,it reflects badly on u and in the end,the relationship may just fall away..whether it is at work in future,or simply handling new frens,character alwaz comes to play..if u have a lousy character,it shows when u relate to pple..the bottom line>>>its ur upbringing...something which we cannot thoroughly control cuz it starts when we are so young..that's y,religion is impt too..n sticking to it..sometimes we cant agree wif everything the bible or the scriptures say,but we need a god whu is alwaz there for us...n religion moulds a person's character..for the better..i believe..sigh..problems are meant to make us stronger...*isH*

im having a headache!!!*sulking* its really a headache noe..not that headache but a real headache!!not going for braddell game lah..raining now..miss u19 trng...having "team meeting" somemore..dunno toking wat **** lar..oOPs..hah..so im staying home!!im not exactly excited abt this prospect thou..haiZ..tmr got taekwondo lesson!! hAi!*block shot* *high Jump kick* *biSh* haha..my first lesson..lol...aye,so sianz..nth interesting today..angeline had a hair cut..n yesterday at trng,i tot i saw my reflection..haHa..yeah..she herself said it was so boy-boy..haHa..hmMM..arGh..my mind is blank now...wait till i have smtg nice to blog yar..siGH...

boO.boo hoo.indra scored a great goal.but singapore still lost.boo hoo.you wun imagine how loudly i shouted when indra scored.sigh.it has been a long time since i got so excited about something..i cant remember the last time i cheered for man utd even..haHa..as in,i mean that i have not watched a live epl match for years.haHa..so yesterday's feeling was really great u noe..i could still feel that excitement inside me when i shouted ,when i was in bed last night,althou we lost in the end.the echo around the four walls was a bit deafening really.and i shocked myself when i heard that..a little embarrassing but fortunately,only my bro was at home..haHa..today is April Fool's Day!! =P still have trng..maybe in fact! there's no trng!! loLx..no more transcribing to do for the rest of the week..ayE..but i did earn a little..haH..i seriously think that i have fallen in love with the simple meal of porridge n teochew dishes for breakfast.the one at hong lim..yeah..v nice...after eating like,porridge,cabbage and sometimes potato or minced meat,i feel so damn good manZ...haHa..cuz i have had a good breakfast!! lOlx..no Macs,no BK,no shakes-head stuff...haHa..i feel so good! like i have done a good job..heE..and its only $1.70...where to find har...haHa..only at hong lim!! lolX...ai yo..when i heard the singapore national anthemn being played at the match last night, and seeing the faces of our footballers,aye,i suddenly felt so emotional..heEee..dunno lar...aye..how can we not give a good fight to those bloody japs..those b******* who invaded singapore and tried to brainwash us with their bloody culture..haH..look at japan now...retribution manZ...they soOoo deserve it...heH...i had another dream..dunno which night it was..i dreamt that the selection for AFC was out..(!!) yeah..i vaguely remember a few names being left out and some selected, but i dun rem seeing my name..hahHa..ai en was in....i duno the rest thou...aye..i noe that its gonna be...nth lar...*whEeee* i wonder when the application results be out...i hope its asap!! so that i can clear some things off my mind..n at least give me a hint abt my future lar...wah piang..so slow de...faster a bit can...*bisH*...my knee still farni farni de...left one...i hope its nth manZ..dun wan lar..not now pls...aYe..those fortunate players in beijing now...i didn't say i am not fortunate thou..maybe a little less fortunate..but singapore's the best place to be!! haHa..wat shyt...quite true lar..u can never find a better place than your homeland,isn't it so...may the power be with me!! =)