ok.here's my update jtrl..hEE..yup,im busy x5 trying to gao2 tim3 all my projects for assessment.so...sorry elmo,abt our ARGUMENT.lolx..we can tok again anytime ok..yeah,i realised that there is potentially lots more work to be done for the next few weeks till assessment so gotta hurry and do what i have to do now.fortunately for me,i am kept busy by things i love to do,rather than things i dread.so,in this case,it's not such a bad thing after all.haha.you would rather be stressed over something you like to do than something you don't rit...yup,so im right here in front of the comp trying to start on my indesign project.really wanna do a nice one.something i like.
we played frisbee yesterday again! although only for a while,but me and nurul had great throws and catches! weEeee...love that...so romantic when you play frisbee at night...you know...0_o
then went to Mac wif elmo n gina...talked a lot...till v late so had to take cab home..
okok...you know,i really have lots of stuff to do.....
take care elmo......make the right decision.(hopefully you know what is right.)
HAHA..why not consult the fortune teller??

i read something in the papers today that made me wanna laugh and cry at the same time.well,if you have a hint of what it is,i know you wun want me to repeat it. =P
ya,u17 got thrashed 27-0 by China.(whew,luckily u19 din had to meet China) i know how they must be feeling.by half time,you wouldn't want to continue playing liao.i wld feel very ashamed of myself if i played.sigh.
i think the government shdn't build 2 casinos.or even 1.they shdnt even think of it in the first place.is Mr Lee trying too hard to be remembered by the people for what he thinks is potential economic benefit?no matter what,i think this whole idea sucks.
i bet you have heard of MLM.yeah.it's getting me aroused.to a certain extent.yet thre is smtg in me which tells me to stay away.it is a thin line.use a broader marker next time ok.
im starting drum lessons this sat! i hope i am under good hands.HAHA.
half an hr more to lesson.but i wanna do ma stuff! hee.
dun disturb.

i still owe er bao a treat.
i will treat the Os when they get back.
confirmed:South Korea is english illiterate.HAHA.

damn.it has been like a few days liao.elmo hasn't come online.and hasn't replied my mail!!! you beta be reading this elmo.but i guess i can't blame you either.koreans are english-illiterate.their explorers are korean-only rit.lolx.
oh well,i dun have a lot of philosophical stuff today.haha.my brain's almost used up.need energizer liao.hoho,arsenal just won.they will meet ManUtd.haha.if ManUtd win that is.which is not a certain thing.
do you think it is a good feeling to be loaded wif lots of assignments wif datelines a few months later?i think its pretty cool.woah,im listening to wei2 yi1 on 933.it just played.i really like the beginning notes.so peaceful yet....and soothing of cuz.if only lee hom acts less like a banana.i wld like him better.
tmr is tournament day.at the indian assoc.hmmm...i really think we will meet Clementi.HAHA.well,that's not for me to worry.lolx.JINX does not apply to me.HAHA.
i did a bit of nola's logo today! handdrawn that is.hmm...i kinda like it when i get such assignments.feel free to express.that's gd! =)
and moreover its for a good cause.nth to do wif $.that's gd.
hmmm...CAN ELMO JUST MAIL ME BACK!!!!!!ok,im getting impatient.i think south korea is still like the north.damn.
i guess i have nth else.oh yar,haha,i finished 2 books!finally!though they are overdue,i can't be bothered abt that really.haha.u get to pay your fines by cashcard rit.and i dun have a cashcard.so what do i do???.......HAHA....anyway,yeah,i feel less burdened.ok,not that i dread reading but i really had to squeeze time in to read them.esp wif comp programme books,damn,they are so thick,words so many,sigh....i dread them.but i know i do need them.fine.and its impossible to finish one in like a month.impossible for me.and i kinda can't adapt to learning from a comp program book.it seems quite weird that i have to first read the instructions on the bk,then look at the screen and the buttons,and try out what i just read.and then repeat the same motion over and over again.not used to it.and i find that my attention span is really sapped when i do this.oh well.....
im gonna continue my drum lessons!! yeah,determined! *punch fist!*
lolx..

hopefully elmo replies soon.i know the other Os wun reply deh.HAHA.

I suddenly feel like i know to blog.or,i want to type out stuff from inside.and i like Times.getting too much into fonts wif everything happening in sch.as much as i am excited by advertising,i do realise that sometimes you may think you idea is great,but hrs later when u ponder upon it again,it just seems ordinary.then u realise that your idea sucks.compared to the rest.what is the definition of a great idea? a great ad? i don't think i get it yet.those ads at the ICON gallery,i really am eager to see them.maybe somebody can tell me there and then,what makes a great ad.sometimes i feel like i know it,sometimes its just wrong.oh well.that will be armando's job to satisfy my thirst for clarity.and knowledge.
knowledge makes you feel powerful.reading a book makes you feel like you know more.well,u do learn more.and i like that.sometimes i detest people who can tolerate just allowing themselves to lie ard and do nth.i wonder how they do that.what is more precious than money?i bet it is time.valued above all else.
the Os are all in Korea.sigh.and elmo hasn't replied my mail.elmo hasn't gone online.elmo!!!! but i wun think she will forget to.its just that...........there's no english language internet explorer in Korea???a little about Lesson In Thinking.i find it quite interesting yet disturbing that we are doing such stuff.if you are doing the same thing as i am,do you think its crazy?and i dun really enjoy it.i wld rather i be taught(more obviously)lateral thinking and De Bono's stuff.i think its cool.but upon learning all those,would anyone of us actually lose ourself?like,you start to learn to think in another way that you no longer think the way you normally would.is that good or bad?one thing i dread,losing things i possess.i hate that.and i think its a great pity.reminds me of driving.i have yet gotten that piece of paper that says'driving license'.oh well,soon.that's what i always say.it isn't really top 5 on my priority list,that's why.HAHA.
sometimes i think it is better not to ponder about life too much.like,the philosophy of life.the logics.the mechanism.the RIGHT way to THINK.but then again,you do.life is full of contradictions.
i wonder if i am making any sense right now.seems like im blogging inorderly.yeah.my thoughts are everywhere now.do you think japanese are b******s?rem sec sch history classes.i was really anti-jap.too much ww2 videos and propaganda.but there is a good reason to hate them.they are living in self denial.as do some of us.and definitely GINA.HAHA.do you think that if you concentrate on one area too much,the other areas which you once concentrated a lot on will slowly lose its function and one day you may just lose it?like if you are doing a lot of design now,you are not as exposed to economics,maths,chemistry,physics and what nots like in JC, you will start to lose your grip and knowledge on them?im sure it happens.that's very sad.and especially if you find that your spelling is getting worse and your english is getting real broken.that's depressing.that's losing yourself.the worst thing that can happen to anyone.in my opinion.losing your memory is bad too.real bad.i think that's the worst punishment anyone can get.worse than any physical handicaps.imagine that you no longer have a past???that's dreadful.anyway,you wun know the meaning of dreadful would you?
its the weekends again.times really flies.i wonder why.where is it hurrying to??i still wanna stay young.
i can't believe i have been in NAFA for a year.doesn't seem like it.i can't even rem clearly my 1st semester days.or months.i can't rem what 1st assessment was like.2nd?No.3rd? Just 6 weeks ago.it's scary.but its definitely better than when you are 78.think of the years ahead.you dare not.
tmr im gg tree climbing.actually i do like those rock walls.unfortunately i din touch them at JC.i quite rem the rock wall at Cedar.yeah.i haven't been back to sec sch/pri sch/JC.sad case.i wonder how it feels like to live in a tree house.ok,not live but just sit in there and look out.sometimes i wish i can live in the world of fantasy.or creation.like you create the world of Winnie the Pooh.and you go live in there with Pooh.if only Pooh was real.i wonder if that is possible...i wouldn't mind Alice in Wonderland.or Aladdin.erm,i love the Wizard of Oz.oh manz.that really rocks.haven't seen it for very long oredi.i love it.i think.the fantasy behind it.
are you getting tired reading?well,try jtrl's blog.it's worse.HAHA.
are you tired of the song too?oh well,i will change it soon.im starting to get tired of it too.
and this sunday im gg to spe! yeah.it has been a long time.i do miss it.only that this time,its a diff grp of people.some things can never be recovered.so try not so hard.
oh well.that's roughly my weekend.not to forget hw too.

Smile at obstacles =)

P.S.i lost Yanling's number.will yanling bother to msg me so that i can get her number?HAHA.maybe,if she is reading this.er bao is quite unpredictable. =D

忘不了

翻开一本旧日记
记载着一段旧恋情
每段都那么的甜蜜
往事历历在这里
曾看过多少的风雨
曾说过要到哪里去
曾做过觉得傻的事
爱过在这城市里

昨晚下了一场雨
让我忽然梦里见到你
躲在某个地方哭泣
好想紧紧抱着你
有一次从朋友口中听到你消息
我的心都在发抖
你是否孤身一人
我不停追问

分手两年后我还是想着你
多久没有见过你
现在你住在哪里
只怕有一天我们都会老去
只想留一点回忆
能够让我们依靠

我在一个咖啡店
透过玻璃窗往外望
你的人影无所不在
无心无魂的想你


为什么人总要等到失去才珍惜
我来不及想告诉你
要永远不分离

aye.im very tired.my right calf has been aching seen this morning.like a strain.maybe cuz i din stretch properly yesterday.today's games were rubbish.we played only 2 games.spent 1 1/2 hrs sitting and waiting for 5pm.i dunno why some people cant think properly.they must have got a screw loose.that is their problem.the first game against sporting westlake was the greatest indication that our team was not strong enough.in fact i think we haven't even teamed up before in trngs.and last minute,that big yellow Nerd put this team together.FINE.that is an uncontrollable.so we should try to play together.but the fact is for the 2 games we did not.or could not.i know it's not exactly right to blame the Nerd but seriously,we need to have played together to be able to play properly together.and its a tournament.not something i take lightly.just go there,play,lose,go home.the second game against the china team was like shit.literally.we got thrashed.i really got nothing to say.cuz i din play well for the 2 games.and i think we all got lost.we have only ourselves to blame.some people may think that i take losses too seriously.but really,do you like to keep on losing?continue playing badly and at the end of the day you just shrug it off?i can't do that.i have to feel depressed.i have to feel down.frustrated.and i need to show it.it's an expression.if i were to keep telling myself positive stuff that all these losses arent anything significant,then im lying to myself.i know we are supposed to think positive all the time,but don you think that if you continue that way,you are missing something?you are missing the feeling of being negative.pessimistic.well,that was what i was thinking about on my way home.we weren't allowed to go home until i dun noe what time but i just went home.i dun really care what he is going to say to the teams anyway.
i dun noe to be manipulated.but for the sake of playing,i can't help it.i know its going to happen in NSSL.every year its the same thing.im stuck in a cycle.vicious cycle.rem sec sch geog.HAHA.dun spell vicious as viscious.(???) =P i rem that was what our geog teacher told me.dun mix geog wif history.
sometimes i think its all becuz i want to play.and there's no other club which is so involved in st soccer,field and have consistent trngs.i really dun mind that we do not have week long breaks after league or CC.i think it is not necessary.and is not beneficial either.so....im stuck.but really,i think i have not put much thought into trying to find a solution to this sticky problem.maybe i dun really care.football is really, really too beautiful a game to give up on.i believe i will regret if i do that.

it's always difficult to leave because you never know if you have done enough.

Imagine this.You are lying on the bed.sick.seriously sick.maybe approaching death.terminal illness.whatever.your frens and relatives surround your bed.many more occupy the whole house.all waiting for the time of your death.they start preparations.calling up the funeral parlous.getting the nicest design for your coffin.booking the void deck.booking a coach bus.searching for the best place to deposit your ashes.or is it better to bury your body.at this point of time, let your soul fly out of your body.watch everything that is happening around you.tell me.will you ultimately die or not?of course you will.why?because everyone thinks you will.everyone is 101% sure you will.and with you still being able to open your eyes when someone talks to you,surrounded by all these negativity,do you think there is hope for you to live on?unless you are God,i say no.how can one ever survive the infinite negativity surrounding an already weak person?
now imagine you are Pope John Paul II.you have been so faithful in your religion.you believe in God.unfortunately,the people you preached to all these years do not believe in miracles.they believe you will die very soon.that's why you did.instead of praying for miracles that the pope would live on,masses of people starting mourning.can you imagine that???who caused the pope's death ultimately?the people.
another thing i hate about this issue of life and death,letters of condolences.what for send such letters after the subject of your letter is long gone???to say words the dead would have wanted to hear right.what for??i dislike letters of condolences.they prove themselves insignificant.unnecessary.and only reflects how concerned you are only when the person does not exist anymore.
similarly,do we only start to show concern when we have the fear that we would probably never get to see our loved ones again?human nature.can't be helped.but can be avoided,if we put enough thought into it before anything happens.
okay,enough abt the pope and whatsoever.
i am sick.arGH.flu.cold.i don noe which one.sore throat.i feel like my nose and ear is blocked.dun noe whether it is the right or left side thou.still have to do art.which can be an easy or difficult task depending on your health condition.
still went for trng yesterday.fortunately i felt the same this morn.HAHA.(am i suppose to laugh?)
today's lesson was one LATERAL THINKING.Heehee.but the exercises we had to do were quite unusual and inevitably,frustrating.ok i shant elaborate too much.makes me bored.but i thought this afternoon that i sort of did sort of similar exercises by myself when i was quite young.when i had nothing to do and decided to just do it.HAHA.well,okay,actually,when i was young,i would just use a pen and scribble at the top of any page where there was empty space.i would just anyhow scribble,turn the paper as i scribble,shake my hand as i scribble etc,just to create some difference in lines.then i would start to stare at my creation and try to make out anything i see.HAHA.i quite enjoyed that.but when i asked someone else if he/she could see what i saw,they couldn't.that's perfectly normal.as i learnt today.well today it was slightly different.we had to crush the paper and then open it up and find human forms.quite the same right.HAHA.second exercise.okay,i want to elaborate now.this exercise was the one which sort of frustrated me cuz i did not know how to do it.we had to use torn pieces of paper to create our friend's mood at the time.this really nan2 dao3 me.so i just did it lar.anyhow only.HAHA.anyway,i would have preferred to be taught lateral thinking and its tools instead of doing such stuff.nobody said you can rely on the school right.fine.
alright.i think that was all for today.it was raining damn heavily after lesson.so we went to TCC for a while.sat there a while.den walked home wif 2 other guys under lighter rain.walking in the rain can be quite romantic.especially at night.just look up at the lights from the street lamposts and watch the rain spray down.very nice.if only i can capture that moment.yeah,and there was the mention of 'water photography' as we walked home.by none other than stupid doRKo.dunno where that word came from anyway.HAHA.
i guess that's all for now.
milo never blog for so long!!!!! i dun think milo even reads my blog now.heehee.
and elmo too.needless to say,gina.HAHA. =P

man.did you see lee hom's latest photo?the one for his latest album.the one where he wore a outer jacket.wp.shuai manz.i like his hairstyle.makes him look boyish.hee.although he very well knows how old he is liao.HAHA.
this morning game at 9am.it was raining quite heavily when i reached.against a guys social team.they weren't that good compared to the other guy teams we played.we lost 5 or 6-2.but you know what,i think all of us did well.the weather was cooling so i din feel very tired although i played both flanks.haha.and it was a positive mood.i mean, i kept a positive attitude although they are guys.guess its cuz of the book's influence.haha.if you know what i mean.anyway,in the first half i was on the right flank and this guy on the left wing was saying negative stuff to himself after he did mispasses and fluked shots at goal.that reminded me that i shd stay positive and i am glad i did.i have to say that i m quite satisfied with today's game.for myself and for the team as we really stood out for one another when tempers flared at moments.yeah.but it's all in the game.in fact i felt more motivated when i saw my teammates getting so worked up and fighting for the ball.yeah.those guys were huge.we had a few great knocks by them.in the first half, i was chasing this ball and a guy came from the side in front of me and knocked me over.damn.i was a little startled at the impact cuz i sort of flew off but he said sorry and i continued chasing the ball.haha.alicia got a big knock at her hip too.wow.i could just sense the impact.nurul had one.she played last man.heehee.brother was as usual,huge among us and really tackling in the muddy pools of water all over the field.i told brother i liked the way she played as stopper.she was in the center of midfield and came up many times to assist me.i think that's a good thing and at least the midfield wasn't so empty when there were counter attacks.yup.that's 1 thing to note.and yeah,mao got her first yellow card.for pulling the pants of number 10.lol.it was quite funny though.mao din think it really was thou.hmmm....i wonder how it feels like to get a card........ =P
anyway,i was happy.still happy.the weather really played a big part.i knew that we weren't afraid of the guys although they were much faster than us.so i guess it's a reasonable performance. =)
monday's st soccer trng! will try to go.wed and friday too.damn it.i dislike the grey jersey.i will design another! haha..
my back's aching now.but nvm.i still have to do Ms Lye's pretty pretty V day card.sort of got another idea but not sure if it will turn out nicely.shd be!! =)
i really think beckham's got style in his football.i love it.it has been a long time since i started learning from him and ever since he went to Madrid,i din follow thru.but he makes things look really easy.yet with sufficient power n accuracy in everything.i wanna master that.

hmmm..seems so cold n lonely, this blog.cuz the blogger has been pretty busy and erm,lazy to press buttons recently.nonetheless,blogger D, is damn free now! that's why DD is blogging in sch.before lesson of cuz.haha.lab lesson today.that's why...heeheehee..
nothing much recently,except that Camp Sunshine is shining on me! =D
well,if you are interested to know about Camp Sunshine(which definitely isn't sometg gloomy...haha),give me a call! =)
have been bogged down by smtg basically v simple recently.have to do a 3D graphic card.must be gd at fingers,paper,glue,scissors(?) n erm,folding,twisting,turning..hahaha...yeah,im not so gd at such stuff although,haiz,i try ok!
ok.erm.too many people ard me now...*walking off*