duno y but i felt so not myself...i mean,im not feeling myself rightnow....after dinner,was so frustrated for no reason or some reason i dun noe...so now sitting in front of the comp blasting the music loud....only got 2 weeks b4 i present HVA2 powerpoint like AGAIN....every term 1 ppt i think....so boring r u listening......but i do like to learn abt HVA(history of visual arts)...erm,so i guess its not homework that im frustrated abt????? hahaa.....takes me a lifetime n i hope not more for me to know myself inside out...today had ink painting and ceramics...cuz 1st lesson for both new subs so just talk a lot...i mean the teacher...the ceramics teacher had lots of philosophy which some of us couldn't bothered listening to....bt i tot it was nice to listen to lao3 ren2's words n what they have to say abt this world....n lots of things he said really struck me....can't type everytg out here..bt his words really disturbed me a lot....philosophy on life n sorts....n that got me really thinking.....bt i do feel that i have no solution to what he said....which needs sort of a solution that only each one of us can find out for our very own self...abt money,living our life to the fullest.......ink painting teacher really cartoon....mr phang yong3 qiang2.....he said chinese painting was very easy..oh well,we shall see abt that huh.....bt he was not strict at all...damn lenient....could even answer his hp in the middle of writing stuff on the board...oh well.....den everyone like so slack n the first qn that popped out of a student's mouth once entering the classroom was,what time will u end the class cher??? oh well......im not gg say anything abt that thou....bt my brain does tell me things when i hear things like that....
do i miss trngs???? hmmmm.....dun noe....bt i feel like it has been a long time since i kicked a ball....dun wanna lose the feeling......dunnno...lets just take it easy.....
one thing i learnt today..do what u have interest in.....for life....u may not end up wealthy,but definitely well-off.... =)

damn it,can i see u more often...damn it...

ma class!! at the old NAFA sch.after sculpture lesson. 

hihi...like MIA for a while hor...hee..was my down period so...leave me alone!! had a lot of thinking to do...but till now,i haven't come to a decisive conclusion...it was abt a very impt thing in my life so i couldn't just anyhow think u noe....i really need to think carefully...1 wrong decision could lead to a regret of a lifetime..already had 1..dun want another...it's abt football really...whether to drop it or not...when i truly thought abt dropping it,it was really scary...like i can't do without it...but i definitely can do without the negative things surrounding football...after a week of absence,which i deliberately took to think real hard since the league ended, i decided to go for trng today...i just want to concentrate on my football n ignore the other things...i know it is not totally possible but i just have to know how to control myself..esp my emotions...which can really turn a person crazy...i know what i lack....bt i wld appreciate it if pple would approach it in a nicer way...n so i keep reminding myself to do what i know is right....sometimes its difficult as when u r in the game,u r so focused on it that somehow u forgot that what u actually needed was to focus on correcting your weaknesses which wld eventually help ur game...it takes time i noe...i wun forget what he said that very day...not that i want to bear this grudge..bt i want this to be a form of motivation for me..sometimes i really wonder to myself,why did i choose to play for such a coach....i dun understand it at all.....did i mention this before??? lol....or maybe it was just swirling rd my mind too many times...haha....yar,there's no logic really...except that i want to play football...so hopefully, today's trng wld be a great turn-ard....i not only hope,i really want to get rid of all that i know are my weaknesses....i can't care too much how the others see me....
and i dun intend to tok to much to him....haha...hey,im serious...
wednesday today...still a long way till monday....miss sch...really! that's why i went back yesterday afternoon...surf net,read in the library....really have no hw or whatsoever...first time i felt so relax as a student...but its not a bad thing...gives me time to read up on other subjects....n it's the first time i do miss sch too...hahaha...sort of can't wait for monday.....**
did u see MU beat liverpool??? they were such a different team...re-energised!!!! that's a good thing...time to get their campaign back on track...not too late!!! cristiano ronaldo is my new idol!!! ok,not idol but model..yup...i like the way he plays...very nice....but i wanna play center mid...in fact,the position u play doesn't really matter right...yeah....glad for silvestre too...he had such a horrible game against bolton i tink....yup,n this time his 2 goals shd really give him a boost!!
k.that's all....

P.S. waiting for ma straw hat.....*tapping feet*

yo.ma first time blogging from sch!! ahaha..free now..really free..cuz this week is assessment week so only need to submit all 10 weeks work for grading.now using laptop.n listening to FIR!! in the library some more...but volume minimum k...haha..dao kia is like that deh..lolX...erm,feel quite like an idiot using the laptop cuz i din normally use it and my fingers like all entangled...esp the mouse arh...cant get used to it...den dun noe the username n password have to ask pple...pai seh..lolX...later got another class.printmaking grading...now i realise,diff teachers have diff ways of grading...just now sculpture grading,is one on one wif the teacher..den tok..figure drawing was like the whole class go around n view one another's works while the teacher grades at the same time...so everyone noes ur marks!!! sianXZ...rendering was like we just place all our works on the table,we go out of class while the teachers r in there assessing...my rendering have to resubmit leh!!!! quite bu4 fu2 qi4 n disappointed at the same time..cuz i spent so much time redrawing n really got improvement!!! have to say that rendering is my not so good subject lar har...heE...so far,FD got B,sculpture got B,rendering,pray hard..cuz i noe got 1 teacher very strict deh...ms lye...see her like so-so...once she opens her mouth,wah lah!!! all harsh words...sian diao...bt rendering is very impt if u wanna do VC..n i wanna do VC next yr!!!! sad...nvm,leave it all to God k...heE...yesterday din go trng..sian..bt im not gonna say too much here...i realise that smtimes the more u pour out ur troubles n watever in ur blog n pple read them,some pple wld just make fun of whatever u write n not take it seriously...nvm...shit,my fingers are really getting tangled up when im typing..so lots of backspacing...argggghhhhhhhhhhHH....to continue,even if they do not make fun,smtimes i dun like to reveal my inner feelings to just anyone...sometimes i do it just for the sake of blogging...bt normally,i really dun like to tell pple my inner feelings unless i really want to...nvm...
just now had lunch at fortune center...as usual...at the organic shop...i tell u,the food there is damn nice..healthy,not really cheap,abt $4 for a meal but i really feel good after eating organic...makes me feel healthy!
junwei left for taiwan liao..so nice,msg to tell me b4 he left...den we tok a bit...said he wld call me when he return...nice fren...
i really dun like my hairstyle...mainly the back...rem that damn QB hairstylist...yeah,that's her work...damn ugly..thou mum said it was ok...bt no matter how i look at it from all angles,i still find it ugly....so,i wear a cap to sch everyday now...n its black...so i look like so boi...anw,gg TM later after sch...after dinner...need to buy stuff..im running out of clothes to wear...
wonder how PM grading is gonna be like...heard that its peer grading...that's so shitty...i dun like that at all....want to complain also....no,im not a complain queen..actually i very guai deh ok...guai student..heE...ok,for figure drawing,after grading,there were some who failed n some who did well...then like 360 deg turnaround,the teacher said that we could touch up n resubmit..everyone! if it was only the failures,i have no opinion...but now,those who did not make the effort to meet the dateline could have a 2nd chance to get higher marks...that's so unfair to those who made the effort to meet the dateline isn't it?? its not that cuz i got good marks that i am saying this..but its a logical argument isn't it???arGHH....i really have opinions on the grading of work in this sch..maybe its becuz its an arts sch...u cld just ask ur fren who is better at a particular subject to do ur work for u n ta da! u get better grades...the teacher wun noe...nvm..i insist that i do my own work,hand in my own work k...when u start to work out there,nobody's gonna do ur work for u...so just close one eye to all these things going ard you....
i quite like the sculpture teacher..mr tay..he's a really nice guy...not becuz he gave me a B but he's friendly n approachable...maybe a little lenient...bt teachers who are too strict makes u really stressed up when doing their work...most impt,teachers shd be approachable..in my opinion...today's the last i see of mr tay..cuz no sculpture next term...
noe at bugis flea market,got CDs selling at as low as $7!! of cuz,of lower quality...'for sale in mainland china only'.....as long as can listen jiu4 ok liao....
kk....
=)

i want to complain!!! since monday morn,tuesday n wednesday morns became as bad.i woke up on these morns feeling so angry n pissed cuz u noe y,those words at half time n those images from the sunday game kept flooding my brain.even when i was only half awake,the flood started oredi.wth.decided i had to find a solution to my frustration so...decided to ask for berd's feedback b4 trng today.wanna tok a bit/shd i say discuss abt my performance on sunday.then suay suay i can't finish my FD project in time.i bia3 tuesday n wednesday whole day can! finally finished the damn thing.enjoyable at times,bt always tiring.for the eyes.black n white i see only.n i kept having naps in between cuz i was just so tired i dun noe y.like i finish shading n touching up just 1 figure n i felt so tired oredi.so friday gonna have a good n hopefully constructive talk with berd.constructive is the word ok.
CJ, you really suck.for now.i will rem ur words always.
bt u noe,i find it very hard to ji4 chou2,even if i want to..hahaha...crazy rit...i wld just like say to myself,forget it lar...haha...sian diao..

thinking every nite.
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so many things happened today.....!!! at sch,RT n BD were erm,so so...can't use charcoal for my final BD project cuz i dun noe how to bring my A2 piece to trng without spoiling the whole thing.i dun have a2 plastic folder.cannot use fixative cuz once sprayed can't add or erase anything liao.oso dun wanna waste time in class doing nothing so ......decided to use pencil...haha..oso can lar,except more work cuz wif pencil u cant blend.lolX...den for RT(rendering techniques),had to render an interior design..quite fun!! cuz turn out to be not bad..not as diff as rendering pple...that's the worse of all...!!! for me...heE..then ended sch at 4.30.walked to the lift.saw **!!! heE...took the same lift...then ** was standing a little further up to my left.jia hao in the lift too.den tok to jiahao a bit cuz he asked me a qn.otherwise i dun think i wld open my mouth.heE.so qiao3.i had BD.** had ink painting.opposite classrooms bt can't look over..brown cap.white shirt.same berms as mine.heE.PUMA bag.yeah.i quite like that bag.bt no sling.den out of the lift.thru the same door. =P den cuz i dun wanna miss the bus so quickly turned right n out of there....dun noe where ** walked to oso..can't expect me to turn my head round n look rit..so pai seh if ** was juz behind..*blUShes* so i just kept walking n din look back...heE.hope to see ** more often..heE.
at trng.got so many pple liao.thou it was like 510 when i reached.6 rds.shooting.2 side.played right wing.i told angeline,heng1 the left back not very fast that's why i cld sprint all i can n still get the ball.den got put in a few crosses.scored 1!! assist: kaka..haha...nice one...got so many seniors absent.wonder wth they are.aYe.now my shin very tight.more on the right side.aYE.angelino got stepped real hard!! dun mean to laugh bt the way she described it was so comic!!on the way home loh...she like 'luan3 qu4'.(copyright:angelino milo)
this sunday got 4aside then league game.wth! sure tired deh loh..wth was he thinking manz.n it's against china smore..nvm.must win another medal this sunday!! haha..like so fun.2 sundays=2medals.this sunday?? i want a gold!!!dun wan 3rd.dun wan 4th.dun wan!!!! hope my shin wld be guai1 x2..dun give me problem k.....haven't told my parents abt this sunday.cuz like my whole day out.missing church AGAIN n AGAIN.2x liao.den i told them last week no more such things liao...wahHHH...last min berd msg...siao diao..still dun noe how to tell them...mum sure damn........arGH.....nvm,pray to GOD. =D
lost my ez link card!!!! shit.realised it wasn't in my pocket when i reached home.either at braddell toilet or in the cab..siao liao..got like more than 5 bucks in there..luckily not GIRO linked.as mum said.first time since..............that i lost smtg k....heE..really..in fact,hmmMmm,i hardly lost anything,come to think of it...lolX....break record liao...haha..tmr gonna bia3 BD final project.wanna finish it!!! cuz next week gotta gao2 tim3 FD final project.so fast 10 weeks liao! first term ending.next term got new subjects like perspective drawing,ceramics,ink painting..no more printmaking,sculpture,RT i think....still got BD!!! arGH.....sian diao...can we do more design work har!!!???!!!!! fine art so eEEeee-EEEErrRRrrrr.....this december gg taiwan!!! weEEeeee....finally got time for hols wif ma family!!! heE....like me so bz....haha...the last time i went overseas wif ma family was..........erm...1998 or 1999..cant rem...so long rit!!!! i think it was to japan..yar...heE..yaY...now i like miss trng also nvm deh..dunno y leh...wo3 bian4 le4?? bt gotta have a break from trng too...haha..first time im gonna miss trng for so long...1 week actually...gotta do lots of shopping!!!! taiwan=shopping!!!! hopefully no hw from sch....have to start learning how to use programs liao....hahah..abt that photoshop self-learning journey of mine a few months ago...erm....din take off...hee...LOST interest...lolX...gotta take up comp lessons liao...during hols only lar..so that at least got a bit more discipline...i hope...heE...
kk....gotta slp..lest got eyebags...nonononononono!!!!

my heart skipped a beat.
my face was expressionless.
all because you were within my sight.

teacher's day!!!! so sad,i only knew that its teacher's day when my bro told me.like so detached from pri,sec n jc days...ayE..nv go back to any of my schs loh...act i every yr oso din go back.everytime maria msg me ask i alwaz say,see how,bt in the end always nv go deh..lolx..so bad hor..hee..Bt HAPPYTEACHERSDAY to all my chers...to all teachers lar....xing1 ku3 ni3 men2 le4....esp if u have students like angelino milo.....=X joke ok..
catherine's sis wanna join eb.she asked me den i said ok ok...haha..like so fun to have new members....heE.
yesterday bia3 FD n BD final project.of cuz dun need to finish the whole thing at home cuz got like 3 hrs each to complete in class so dun need to spend time doing at home.that's time management for u!! haha...i just did the outline den put that aside liao..cuz got many other things to do!!!VE have to do 8 sketches.5+3.3 in color.poster color..lolx..like so long din use paintbrush liao..haha..yar.so this morn i did the 5 black n white sketches.left 3 in color on ivory board not done.wanna finish it by today cuz i noe got lots more work coming up..dun wanna drag liao..den tonite having farewell dinner..lolx...elmoey leaving for another tourney...win smtg back can.....hEe...so pray hard that i can finish my VE stuff by today k....haha...
so touching seh...Susilo n Jiawei..OwwWhhhhh.....when will that.....................hahaahahhahahaha......
kk...that's all for nowey.......hope to meet up wif old frens.....=D