here i am again.still in china! haha.but today was real sad.we lost to HK by 2 goals.so for this whole tourney,we din win any games,we din score any goals.aye.the only thing that is wise for us and for me to do now is to move on n start working harder.sometimes i wonder why i take football so seriously.and sometimes i also wonder if i wld suit another sport better.u noe,like maybe a sport which uses the hands instead of legs predominantly.hmmm..anw,we not going to shanghai for sighseeing too i tink.can't.aye,what to say...
i really miss ***.saw u once ****** but din **** with ***.haha.no,im serious.i feel so dumb.
ok,back to this AFC tourney.some of us din get the chance to play at all.i think if i were one of them i wld be damn sad n angry.n pissed off.hah.really.waste of time.well,partly.anw,wuxi is damn small n the shopping centres r so sianz.so, to aien,lin,n whu else i can't rem,just keep working harder.someday,someday,it will be ur world. ;)
and as i was writing in my diary which is a few pieces of hotel paper, i wonder if it is really a good thing if u knew someone better.i mean,know her inside out.u wld know her flaws,her habits, her character etc.so if you can't tolerate her all these stuff den u wld dislike that person rit.haha.ok,nvm...
i do wish to **** with *** and even see *** in person. =I

aye.today is saturday.gonna miss my taekwondo lesson.be back on the 1st.sigh.i really dun have the mood to play the HK game liao.sian.but cannot say out.haha.n i can't visit my blog.i can only blog.siao rit.here use net must pay.haha.wrote my "almost daily" diary on hotel paper.haha.cuz its only when i write that i can really know how i feel n see how i feel.haha.hmmm...so far havent done much shopping.every day is the same.wake up,limber,breakfast,rest,lunch,trng/game,dinner then sometimes go supermart.twice went to supermart only.sianz.i wonder if we are going today.cuz no game.haha.but din buy much.only a toy dog for ji.lol.i rejected NUS's offer to study arts n soc sc.its a total waste of my time really.luckily i applied for NAFA.the interview for smu to be on the 7th of june that week.wah piang,my eng really sarks! too much chinese influence for the past few days liao.listen chinese songs,chinese mtv n sports channel.that's my only entertainment.only once in the nite when i went downstairs with titi,lin n elmo to walk walk.haha.den we "chatted" with the uzbekistan players.they act really weirdly(?). took a few pics.that's all.i dislike water parades.every nite b4 we slp.sianz.drink n drink.got water,honey water,accelerade.that's the worst.now, i dun noe whether i want to stay in china or go back home.anw i have to go eventually rit.haha.haiz,i think singapore is still the best.lol.every time i sing the national anthemn,i just can't help but feel blurry.haha.really.i wonder if all of us feel this way.i wonder if all of us did feel sad that we did not go to the next rd.i feel that i let my country down.understand???? i dun really like the things n certain pple ard me.but i can't say much rit.sianz.some gossip stuff.haha.right here live! ai en has an admirer! haha.from thailand.lol.n last nite she asked me where ai en was.coincidentally ai en was walking towards me n the thai gal just went "hi" to ai en!!!! n ai en was like,erm,so pai seh,dun noe what to say.lol.n i felt so out of place.haha.eeEEeeeeeEEEe...then they were making fun of me n someone else too.but i wun say lar.haha.then jed.haha.n her chinese taipei "fren".i think,i said i think,that there was attraction lar.but not gonna tok so much abt that.lol.duno what else gonna happen for the next few days but i tell u,the washing part wasn't that bad after all.fara brought soap powder so we cld wash our stuff by ourselves.haha.n i just like wash wash lar,so okok..haha..dry quite fast too.but thinking of this, i can't wait to get back to singapore. also becuz i hate the fact that my normal life is disrupted when i am out of singapore.u noe.so..... ok,sick of typing.the keyboard here sarks.haha. =P

testing leh...me in china! lol..but coming home soon.lost both games.dun feel like toking too much now.sigh.

today me went to queensway to buy real good stuff! haha..spent $63...bought 2 pairs of "hidden" nike socks..!! den deuter pouch..!! den new nike shin guards!!!! first time i spend so much $$$ in one day..hmMM..but that's cuz i know i have enuf income to cover up lar..haha..den today dad gave me $$....heard that got allowance from FAS tmr...so shd have enuf $$$ lar..haha..once in a blue moon that i spoil myself..loLx..FA Cup Final up next! in 1 min time...yaY..i tell U..MU is gonna win...haHahahahahahahahHHAhahahahahah....

yoyo..hmm..took my FTT last nite.cool.i think shd be ok.had my driving lesson this morn.just.did U-turn for the first n second time.haHa.kept being asked to relax.well,i was what.lolx.maybe it just din show.today's trng can be last to be my last,most prob my last, at TN.so i wanna practise more today.go earlier.hee.titi's request too ok.sat got st soccer trng.cool.long time since i was there.but its in the afternoon.last qing2 diao4.but nvm,i sure hope no last minute injury.tsk.*touch wooD* i feel that the whole of this week,my form dropped.since that monday game.i tried to forget abt it.yes i forgot my horrible performance that day.tuesday's trng was sianz.wednesday eb trng was so-so.some crosses were ok,the rest later on were lousy.thursday break.friday is gonna be a revival! ;) n yar,i applied for NAFA liao.haven't told anyone except myself n of cuz,god,who shd already know the moment i was born.haH.two days.i think other pple's blogs all damn nice.got pic n the design is nice.but i just can't get the Hello from Picasa going.can't upload pics to my blog.just can't log in.not my fault.i realised that it has been a long time since i practised shooting.that's why i feel so lost all of a sudden.suddenly couldnt control a hard ball properly.must be those stupid games we had in a row.deprived me of time to practise.nvm.it shall be today.no looking back ok.just go out there n whack those balls.tear the net.sheer power.precision.who do u think u r? of cuz i am Dorcas.u noe who is Dorcas.the one who doesn't give up at the last minute.the one who doesn't give excuses not to go the extra mile.i sure hope i am someone like this.i want to be.i need some motivation that will last.and last long.not for a moment,or a split second.ok.change topic.u noe when was the last time i travelled?meaning,take a plane.yeah,it was in 1998.to japan.6 sicko years back.n ya noe why since then i din travel?a few reasons really.1.turning point in my life in sec1.i started to study real hard.n studying was practically my whole life.no time for other stuff.2.another turning point in my life.in mid sec4.i went for football trngs officially.with eb.my first club.n i din wanna miss any single trngs.so no hols for me.all the way till today,i din leave this tiny island.can you believe it??not even to malaysia.not even to church camps.3.i disliked the feeling of sitting in an airplane.had the fear that i would die in an air crash.i really did dread taking the plane.maybe i watched too many hollywood movies.loLx.yeah,but there was really the fear there(n i couldn't bring a dog along. ;) ) but now,its a diff thing altogether.its for a football tournament.n no fear would stop me.anyway,my thinking's changed too.if god wants me to die in an air crash,i can't avoid that can i? so just go manZ.i was actually so sianz last afternoon that i took a few video clips of myself.lOlx.i must be mad u think.but no,it was fun viewing those clips later on.n i could even get turn those snap shots into images n post it up.i told ya my 3650 was cool.heE.yeah,n one of them is on friendster! haha.that one which is not very clear but satisfying enuf for me.hmm..almost finished packing my stuff except for last minute things like toiletries(?),boots...changed $200 for RMB 900+..hope to get some golf balls,chinese medicine n useful stuff back home.its not a shopping trip anw,is it?no.after AFC,i think,i predict, that i would feel a lighter weight on my shoulders.hah.u must be wondering why.hmmm..dunno,but i feel more relaxed with my eb frens,eb trng n st soccer trng.nssl on 4th july.cool.can't wait.league too.so exciting! i dun wanna go back to TN anymore.although eb doesn't have a gym facility,no physio,but my frens are all there.i dun mean i dun have frens at u19 but u noe....n i noe...(if u dun,ask me) yeah,so...ok,enuf.take care everyone.i dun think me gonna blog till i come back.unless something strikes me sometime b4 i leave.ta~ta.. =)

had a weird dream last nite.erm,just smtg happi to note,i could sleep well the past few nites! haha..okok..yar,i had 2 separate dreams or is it one..dunno but anw,i think one dream was during my afternoon nap n the other was last nite.dunno which is which but one was abt my taking bus 16 to get to orchard or smtg.shiya was wif me in the bus but we ended up on the opposite end of the island.den we went to eat or smtg.forgot liao.hahA.last nite's dream is more vivid to me.erm,its wif shiya again.dunno why alwaz her but this dream like more personal.n weird too.haHa.ai ya,waste my time.u know smtg,if you seriously blog often enuf, your english may improve, that is if u r conscious enuf to correct ur lousy english n grammer mistakes.haHa.hmm..the weather is still very hot.i rem last nite's trng, i was still dripping even while we were cooling down.heE.physio told me the cause of my sole pain.dunno what medical term..goes something like plantas blah blah..den told me how to massage some part of my sole(not heel!) n yar..less painful now.mistook the sole for the heel..haHA..bad bad...anw, we had roti john n some soggy,greasy fries for dinner.all of us.n had to take tablets again.but i did not take.oso dun noe why they want to choose this type of food for us.isn't it unhealthy?? nvm,anw, its 4 days n counting.....=l

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hihi.feeling pretty cool.cuz its like raining now.since dunno how many days.looking forward to this sunday.anybody gonna see me off?? haah.just jk.its a 1am flight.hmMm..registering for NAFA in case i do not get any letter while i am away.not told any1 yet.haHa.i feel discouraged after yesterday but i have to get up and get on.ya.that's it. =l

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my heel is getting worse.the pain.just now i played full game! right wing.eb vs SMU.we scored many goals.erm,some was becuz the keeper wasn't really good. i scored one too! haHa.but could have been saved by other keepers really.but i sort of relaxed when i hit that ball into the net. =P quite happi with myself.heE.crossed quite a few balls but my accuracy and power of the cross must improve much more.n as coach jamal said,i must have the confidence to take on the left back and beat her, then cross.oso to cut in if able n like what meli always do, score.coach jamal also said that any ball in the 18 yard box MUST go into the net.i missed 2 chances in the box.haHA.nvm,will improve.hmMm..right now my whole body really aching.later got taekwondo!! haHa.berd v nice leh..he TOLD EVERYONE when he was naming the line-up that he wanted to play me full game right wing to prepare me for AFC cuz i playing right wing for u19.haHA.din expect him to be so nice but maybe its just for this game.haha.it all depends on me, and me only really.ok,shall practise more k! haHa.ta ~ta. =)

ai yo.my whole body is aching.esp my back,at the tailbone part.damn pain when we did those abs thingy.then my right ankle.n muscle all stiff.this week i train everyday leh.tmr oso got game vs SMU.my neck stiff.back stiff.n i am suffering from sleepless nights.dunno y leh.i just can't sleep really! i keep tossing n turning n my back like alwaz so uncomfortable.this way cant,that way cant.wah piang.sometimes have to sit up.am i getting old?? omgoodness.not that thought.ok,today we got our itinery.brought home quite a lot of stuff,clothes that is.all thrown into a big red plastic bag n i carried it all the way home.so spoil-image.haHa.n for the first time since i trained wif u19,we had a macs treat.chicken fillet.the $1.95 one.haha.so this is the first time since dunno how many donkey months (not this yr thou) that i ate a mac burger(don count breakfast muffin lar).
duno y just now i heard B.A.D's wo3 de4 cuo4 and all of a sudden i felt the urge to come online.haiZ.missing someone can be so frustrating but the feeling of missing someone is not one that one wants to reject rit.i heard this phrase..ji4 mo4 de4 ren2 xi3 huan1 ji4 mo4 de4 an1 wen3.so true.so true.that's why i can't fall into this trap.haHA ;)

hmmm..actually we played FAS Staff yesterday.men.including coach koh.haHa.who played on my side of the field.we lost loh.5-2.but at least we scored.at half time almost the whole squad was changed except for 2.tsk.playing one half of a game is nv fun,esp if it is the first half.i rather the 2nd really.or the whole game! haHa..of cuz rit..its nt a pleasant feeling sitting on the bench.i think all of us gals should learn to play like guys.really.hmmm..evi told us to get our luggage n stuff n that got me really excited.haHA.crazi.ok,not really excited but a little stressed up cuz like got so many things to bring.so this sat can play SMU! yaY! but i think im gonna play one half only.for the latest few eb games, i only played the first half.i think its partly becuz i only attend trng once a week n berd has to "act" fair.oh well.but all i really want to do is to play my best n score! haHa..or assist..sometimes the feeling of assisting a goal is greater than the feeling of scoring(?!?) yeah,sometimes i feel that way.n i like to play right wing! although the pressure is on you when the ball is on ur side, to bring it down the flank.n if you fail too many times, the ball wld be played on the other side most often than not.haHA.yesterday,they kept playing on the left n i was like just kept running off the ball without getting it!!!! v furious.cuz i know there was the opportunity.or there were opportunities for me to get a shot.oh well,my stomach isn't feeling too well.must be what i ate last nite.that box of rice we got after trng was chilli hot(!) and i think i gobbled down the stuff too fast.n then went i reached home i really wanted something cold n sweet,heE,n there there,a cup of longan syrup in the fridge.haHA.sigh.nvm,it'll get better.hmMm..so its back to trng again today.got lots of injuries in the team i heard.so physio's gonna be bz bz bz.i sure hope its gonna be a relaxed trng.monday got another game.wahHhhh..i sort of pulled my hamstring yesterday cuz rem,i kept running(without getting the ball).haHa.a bit strained.hmMm..this sunday going to watch the what you call it "sultan cup" or what.got 2 tix! hope dad wld want to go. *sentiMentAl* loLX..oh yah,n i borrowed another agatha christie bookie..haha..i have been reading agatha christie's mystery stories..coOl! now onto my 3rd.have to say Sherlock Holme's one isn't too bad either.nice nice.that's wif nor thou.alrit, let's look forward to an exciting weekend! heE. =)

hmm..just trying this BlogThis!..haHa..very tired arh...after today's trng..*still sweating*..the weather damn hot can...anw,tmr got another game against HUFC.last nite i msged JunWei abt AFC thingy den just now he called me! from Tekong! *whEe* haha..just a little surprised and happy..=) my first received call from Tekong! loLx..yar, den heard a little abt the rest of the guys..n that Wan Qi has a bf liao..haHa..yar,i saw her friendster pic..hmMm..no comments..haHA..just finished checking my work..submitted liao..this two days' work was terrible..inaudible..had to strain my ears...contacted Luke..have drum practice on 5th of June cuz he will also be away when i am away..haHa..den the 6th of June is his turn liao..wahHhhhh...first time leh..i hope i wun shortchange myself..heE..got pple watching..or should i say hearing..haHa..*sweat* *toOO much sweat* after trng today hurried home without staying for dinner wif them cuz have to complete my work loh..tmr got work too..last assignment for the week i hope..haHa..u get to earn $$ but u dread the assignment..no logic rit..loLx..ok,im not laughing at all..den this morn had driving lesson..wheEe..i had more control over half-clutch n the accelerator at first gear..but got xi cia a few times..lesser times thou..haHa..i feel that next sunday is coming so soon..like the happy times would be gone soon..heE..dunno..but i think i will be playing for eb..haiZ..for now that is my decision..hmMm..like that lar..v straining after facing the computer for like 2 hrs liao.. (",)

hmmm..today's game was tiring.i alwaz feel unusually tired out after playing wif boys.boys are undeniably always a step ahead of us.but that statement doesn't apply to all u noe.haH.one day,it will be the other way round. *eviL griNs* we lost but i think we all played pretty ok.i played second half right wing.i alwaz prefer to play second half than first half.had a few chances n i crossed early.and when the striker couldn't hold on to my cross,they all kept shouting at me to bring the ball down the touch line before squaring it in.hmMm..i admit at times i should have brought the ball down further but sometimes really,crossing early is good cuz i know that if i dribble too much,i wld get caught up by the opponent and u noe,i haven't really mastered chickening yet..so..i tried to cross early.and in my opinion,the striker should have made it a point to run for the ball or expect a cross in and meet it but din.then its my fault.nvm.when i play an early ball into space behind a defender for the striker cuz i know the opponent was behind me real quickly,the striker din chase after it.and i was told to relax and play easy.i wasn't nervous u noe,i was thinking quick and expected her to go for my pass.now i am quite confused as to whether what i did was correct.have to ask coach.n hope that he gives me a satisfactory answer.heE.it was a rather happy and sad occasion today,esp after the game cuz we were so-called told who were going to China.hmm,sadly a few of my closer frens din make it.in fact,only carol.but u noe,everything happens for a reason.and a good reason indeed.she will only find out sooner or later.it may be a blessing in disguise for her.so quickly,next sunday we are flying off.and after AFC,we would go separate ways.this is the sad part really.but i really want to stay in touch wif these pple i met more than a year ago.it really takes that "something" for us to meet..i mean,why us?why both of us?why the group of us?why each particular person? u can call it fate or whatever but i definitely do not want to lose touch wif anyone i have met,talked with and shared my life with,however little time we had together.not any single one of them.but unfortunately,not everyone thinks this way.in fact it took me a while before i was enlightened upon this fact, that frens are meant to be kept.heE.like so slow rit me..nvm..haHa.yeah,n elmo is going too! she was shocked just now to be selected but i am so so glad for her.hmm,maybe shes a little disappointed that she cannot make it for her chess tourney?? nonetheless, its gonna be a great experience for all of us..maybe even once in a lifetime! n elmo,maybe coach was trying to scare you when he took u aside on monday's trng n told u that u weren't going.haHa.budden why the sudden decision to come for the game today if you are not selected?? were u lying to me when u told me coach said that to you?? hmMM...haha..anw,the impt thing now is to look towards AFC.(is my english correct??) yeah..nth else..quite happy today..but i could have done better.definitely.i mean on the field.oh yar,brother came to watch the game today.heE.nice nice..=)

oops.i see a new look.heE.quite nice actually.i mean this blogger.com thingy.today got game at ChristChurch.against boys u16.hmMm..sure hope for the best! nth much to say actually..life is so mundane and routine.hmMm..laLalalala

got sunburnt.see my face so red now.hahA.so sian loh.must act for the camera.well actually,din need to act but just do normal stuff.only that it wasn't much fun.haHa.n very de hot.but i quite like my sunburnt look.lOlx..okok..erm,tmr gonna take my passport photo so hope the sunburnt wun be gone too quickly!!!! haHa..crazi liao.just now taekwondo lesson,learn front kick.i like cannot do it properly leh.the instructor showed me again and again but i still,like he said, not relaxed enuf.like very stiff..haHa..my muscles all very strained n tensed now..after this whole week of trng..next week got 2 games on tues n thurs.thurs centralised trng.but still like no news of it leh! wah piang.den how to pack n prepare ourselves??? din even say who is selected to go..tsk..i mean,u need to tell us in advance rit,not last minute break the news to us..haiZ..my whole body is aching..muscles screaming!! haHa..just got my pay! for april..shortchanged me so i complained..haHa..serious..paid me lesser than what i was supposed to get..haiz,only got tmr to rest..how howhow...maria now siao over QPR.ok in fact she's a long time fan liao..so hopefully QPR get promotion to div 1 lar..in the beginning i tot they might be promoted to EPL cuz i tot they were in div 1..oh well..sian liao..saw songyu on the way home..at the lift..took the same lift..haHa..quite farnie seeing him at this time of the day..but..haha..nth lar..

headache wor.last nite after trng,julie spoke to a few of us.saying that she wants us to stay together to play for a new team they are going to set up.coached by national team coaches.play for league.budden i oredi how many months ago told berd that me gonna play for eb.den how leh?? very fan de leh..julie also said get to play big big games overseas.but i think that is beside the point.help me!!!! haiZ..den after that Anna toked to me for a while..dunno y but almost every time after trng,there is a short period of time where Anna and me just happen to be alone wif each other and den she would start talking to me.haHa.if i play for this new team,i cant play nssl.so many things to consider u noe.i oso dun noe how leh!!!??!!! julie said dun play nssl cuz league starts in july.nssl also starts in july.dunnoe how berd arrange de.i think the whole reason behind my fan nao is becuz i dun noe who to trust.exactly.i dun noe whether berd mean his words.its often that he doesn't mean it but i can't take for granted that he does not mean it now.on the other hand,so few of us left to form a new team.what if it doesn't happen?no new team? den how leh.i can't go back to eb.sure kana from berd..den all my frens from u19 and eb.aYe.anw,eb=bishan arsenal.i just knew it last nite.what a stupid dumb name. just becuz berd like arsenal.siaO.nvm,just pray ok.pray for the right decision.god knows best! =) carol said next thurs centralised trng liao.wah! so damn fast.den on 24th,off to china,if i get to go.everything like wheezing past so fast! had my 2nd driving lesson yesterday.i tell you,i still can't control the half clutch n accelerator at first gear well enuf.everything the red light turns green,my car either goes dead or i really take some time to set it off.haHa.slowly lar har.you can do it! ;) i realised that i have lots of things to do recently.looking at my weekly timetable,weekend like so many things to attend to.haHa.is that good or what??!!?? tmr morn meet jo and yi fen at Pasir Ris Park! cycling! haHa.den the whole afternoon got shooting! at Toa Payoh stad..can't believe its gonna take so long.but i sure hope we all have great fun! anw,its gonna be relaxing rit..haHa.mother's day on sunday! have u got something for ur dearest mum?? loLx..i mean U,yeah U,reading this.somehow i feel that i shd get something for mum this yr..cuz i feel like after she was out of work,we spent more time having breakfast and going out (in the afternoons when i pon trng) together..heE.and thru that,we like closer lar..haHa.*shY* ok,so yar,after trng tonite,get something..heE.like that loh.nth else.have a good weekend..lalalalala...

just knew that tracy's leaving.had to pass a letter for her to coach.dun noe y but at that point of time when i first knew it,i felt really sad.like suddenly so depressed.so she's not going to china wif us anymore.dun noe when will i ever get to meet up wif her again.do i sound real sad?? i really am. maybe she has unconsciously took up an impt place in my life and i din noticed it.heavy rain now.everything seems so moody.i must be feeling n not thinking again.all the best to you tracy.it was really really nice knowing you.quite sad to see you leave.haiZ.no tears thou.i mean,no,i dun cry easily. =P

how was trng today?? fine.not bad despite the very wet n muddy ground conditions. went wif brother,nor,az n sam n of cuz berd for dinner..had i can say, a quite satisfying meal cuz its fan4 cai4.haHa.tmr morn,monaco vs chelsea.i sure hope monaco gets thru.this year's champs league like v sianz leh..no big big clubs.erm,tmr julie wanna talk to a few of us,including me.hope its something good.heE.tell you a little secret.*shHhh* i alwaz get inspired by meli on the field.i mean,i watch how she kicks that damn ball n bends it and whatever she does wif it.n i feel like im learning something.its not a so-called secret but its a secret nonetheless.haHa.just finished reading agatha christie's mystery book.one of many of her works.in 1 and a half days! haha.i couldn't put that book away u c..kept me absorbed.loLx.borrowed one sherlock holmes de too.i sort of rekindled my passion for mystery books although sometimes i have to admit, since yesterday, i tried not to scare myself after reading part of it.haHa.yeah,i do scare myself a little abnormally.so i do not watch horror movies.hate it in fact.what for spend money to freak yourself out.can't rem the last time i watched a horror show.dun want to anw.maybe i should consider private investigator as my occupation. *grInS* n scare myself to sleep every day..haHa..

suddenly have something to add..listening to SHIN's song..in chinese,it is huo2 gai1..den i suddenly tot of something..i tink it is very cruel to see, right before your eyes, your ex and your ex's ex together again..isn't it??i dun refer to myself definitely..that image just came to me..worse still,your ex doesn't even talk or look at you a bit..how sad..haiZ..so,for that person whu i am refering to,stay cool manZ..say that doesn't bother you.it doesn't bother you at all.it's no big deal.as you said to me b4,if that person doesn't love you anymore,there is no point in holding the person u love back..that's so right isn't it?? n den this song just is so...nice n yet sad..ok enuf...haha..to myself,say it doesn't bother you anymore.not at all.not anymore.

ai yo..today's trng was tough..sprinting,striding..out of breath really..but after that,it was shooting,volleying..fun! and we had the lights on on one side of the field for the first time..haHa..coach koh alwaz there wif us..so nice..=) nth much abt trng actually..wonder how's angelino milo's trng??!!?? haHa..tag lar angelino milo..my msn can't sign in..loLx..yar,time is flying manZ..next next week is centralised trng..den AFC liao..Ze Hui found me on friendster today! just lar actually..haiZ..i have trying to find her on friendster but couldn't cuz u know y,her nick so damn long..new name somemore..stephanie..haHa..almost freaked me out..=P hmMm..so wed gotta go eb trng..like v tired leh..haiZ..i somehow feel that i am forced into this hard pressed routine..like cannot dun go for eb trng..anw,just a passing thought..another thought to share;you are already a winner when u do not quit,it doesn't matter whether u pass the finishing line first ;) oh yar,i dun need go for interview! haHa..so damn happi..only 2 pple need..so,yar,budden doesn't mean i get selected..still got 3 hundred over others i think..but nvm..i can't do anything now except pray rit..hAha..so stay cool doRc! =)

ok.sorry for that uproar in my previous blog.it wasn't meant to mean U(yeah,U).haHa.sat's game was bad that's y..had my drum lesson today cuz change class liao.coincidentally,feng ling has her guitar lesson today too.4pm for me, 5pm for her.haHa.but i remembered so i arranged to meet her a while after my lesson.nice to c her after so long.quite long, in fact.but i guess we both still look n behave the same way lar har..heE.frankly speaking, i hate playing only 1 half for a game.(r u listening??!!??)i hate it.i hate to sit by the side n watch,although the weather may be discouraging.i know ultimately, its all me.its me really.myself.if i play well,of cuz i get to play the whole game.if i dun,i sit by the side.but time will tell ok.time will tell.let's tok abt stuff unrelated to football, lest i get too sick n tired abt this sport.i asked songyu for the code for that clock thingy he had on his blog cuz it's really nice n special.erm,added it to my template but have yet to see it.haHa.nvm,thx anw.n that counter,u think its cool??!!?? haha..in chinese! *roCk on* lol..anw,nowadays hardly chat wif mario although we may be online..maybe its just that we feel like we have nothing to say to each other..*saD* but i oso dunno lar..ayE..erm,then these 2 days, i mean the past sat n sunday, i had sumptuous meals! haHa..cuz labour day(20th anniversary ;)) and then today was like we went to crystal jade for tim sum cuz mum said wanted to celebrate mother's day earlier(!!??!!)..so ok loh..get to eat real nice stuff anw.ok lar,not bad..the char siew sou damn nice can..wah piang..n the fried chicken wif shrimp paste..haHa..then sat went to marine parade's thai restaurant for dinner..not really fab but ok lar..chatted wif christine online..she got into business SMU..fl too..soc sc SMU...joawen NUS i tink..yar...grace still busy upgrading herself..loLx..then this coming sat morn we going to pasir ris park to cycle!! yaY!! nice to cycle in the morning..when the park is still quite empty..n the wind is nice..the air is nice too..haHa..everything is nice!! just hope that filming wun clash lar har..*hopE hope* ok,i have to confess..i ate 2 chocolate waffer cones on sat..cuz the first one i ate was after the game..tasted damn nice..so i couldn't resist another one after dinner..haHa..shit manZ..shd stay away from Macs from now on..loLx..that's all i tink..my brain a little tired now..oh yar,just to add..drum lesson just now really was bad..bad for my ears..like got 7 of us..all of them like banging the drums real hard! n like not sensitive to the nature of the music.. wah piang..first time i can't stand the sound of drums..they were like banging as hard as they could even though the music was like a slower-paced one..supposed to be melodious..but they just banged can..tsk..i couldn't help but shake my head..im not saying im good or what k..but this is the first time after so long that i just couldn't hear what i was playing..except for the filling in part..nvm..for the love of drums..haHa..*drum oN* =)

today is a sucky day...sucks..sucks..sucks..weather sucks..i suck..u suck too..so dun read this!!!! *GRrrrRR* EVERYBODY SUCKS!!!!!!!!! i want to dao everyone...including u..so stop reading this now!!!! u suck ok..u suck can...horrible day..horrible horrible horrible...eat ****