yoyo..hmm..took my FTT last nite.cool.i think shd be ok.had my driving lesson this morn.just.did U-turn for the first n second time.haHa.kept being asked to relax.well,i was what.lolx.maybe it just din show.today's trng can be last to be my last,most prob my last, at TN.so i wanna practise more today.go earlier.hee.titi's request too ok.sat got st soccer trng.cool.long time since i was there.but its in the afternoon.last qing2 diao4.but nvm,i sure hope no last minute injury.tsk.*touch wooD* i feel that the whole of this week,my form dropped.since that monday game.i tried to forget abt it.yes i forgot my horrible performance that day.tuesday's trng was sianz.wednesday eb trng was so-so.some crosses were ok,the rest later on were lousy.thursday break.friday is gonna be a revival! ;) n yar,i applied for NAFA liao.haven't told anyone except myself n of cuz,god,who shd already know the moment i was born.haH.two days.i think other pple's blogs all damn nice.got pic n the design is nice.but i just can't get the Hello from Picasa going.can't upload pics to my blog.just can't log in.not my fault.i realised that it has been a long time since i practised shooting.that's why i feel so lost all of a sudden.suddenly couldnt control a hard ball properly.must be those stupid games we had in a row.deprived me of time to practise.nvm.it shall be today.no looking back ok.just go out there n whack those balls.tear the net.sheer power.precision.who do u think u r? of cuz i am Dorcas.u noe who is Dorcas.the one who doesn't give up at the last minute.the one who doesn't give excuses not to go the extra mile.i sure hope i am someone like this.i want to be.i need some motivation that will last.and last long.not for a moment,or a split second.ok.change topic.u noe when was the last time i travelled?meaning,take a plane.yeah,it was in 1998.to japan.6 sicko years back.n ya noe why since then i din travel?a few reasons really.1.turning point in my life in sec1.i started to study real hard.n studying was practically my whole life.no time for other stuff.2.another turning point in my life.in mid sec4.i went for football trngs officially.with eb.my first club.n i din wanna miss any single trngs.so no hols for me.all the way till today,i din leave this tiny island.can you believe it??not even to malaysia.not even to church camps.3.i disliked the feeling of sitting in an airplane.had the fear that i would die in an air crash.i really did dread taking the plane.maybe i watched too many hollywood movies.loLx.yeah,but there was really the fear there(n i couldn't bring a dog along. ;) ) but now,its a diff thing altogether.its for a football tournament.n no fear would stop me.anyway,my thinking's changed too.if god wants me to die in an air crash,i can't avoid that can i? so just go manZ.i was actually so sianz last afternoon that i took a few video clips of myself.lOlx.i must be mad u think.but no,it was fun viewing those clips later on.n i could even get turn those snap shots into images n post it up.i told ya my 3650 was cool.heE.yeah,n one of them is on friendster! haha.that one which is not very clear but satisfying enuf for me.hmm..almost finished packing my stuff except for last minute things like toiletries(?),boots...changed $200 for RMB 900+..hope to get some golf balls,chinese medicine n useful stuff back home.its not a shopping trip anw,is it?no.after AFC,i think,i predict, that i would feel a lighter weight on my shoulders.hah.u must be wondering why.hmmm..dunno,but i feel more relaxed with my eb frens,eb trng n st soccer trng.nssl on 4th july.cool.can't wait.league too.so exciting! i dun wanna go back to TN anymore.although eb doesn't have a gym facility,no physio,but my frens are all there.i dun mean i dun have frens at u19 but u noe....n i noe...(if u dun,ask me) yeah,so...ok,enuf.take care everyone.i dun think me gonna blog till i come back.unless something strikes me sometime b4 i leave.ta~ta.. =)