well,well..just now at P.S. met Zhen Qi...she's working at one of the watch shops there..really nice to have met her..n she couldn't stop commenting tat i looked different...cute...loLx...made me so shy..n dun noe wat to say...heard from her tat cai yi's working at a restaurant at paragon...hmMM...maybe one day go c her..haHa..1st time saw zhen qi wear a nice elegant dress to work..loLx...alrit..nth much to write..ta Ta..

hey hey!! today i went excavating!! at st andrews' cathedral..wif yi fen
really cool n fun but tiring as we had to use shovals n changkos n all sorts of equipment...needed strength yar...we met a nice singaporean archaeologist whu studied in US,named Chen...he's really nice...n told us wat to do....found lots of pottery, a jem n practically soil n clay...but it was fun digging n all the stuff...glad i had company..the volunteers there were great n friendly n i learnt quite a little from Chen..shall continue another time..till den.....its dot doT excavatIon!!

heyhey!! v bored now...so just tot of writing a movie review!! haha...went to watch magic kitchen at last..wif my bro..at westmall..well,typical of most hk movies..lack substance n quite superficial but dun noe y i still wanna watch..u noe smtg..jerry looked super cute in the movie!! lOlx...but really,it was quite a lame show..a little touching,tat is if u put your feelings into it,u can truly feel the emotions of the character..a few probing questions oso..but i sort of forgotten liaO..loLz...anw,i finally understand y hk movies cannot be compared to those from hollywood..simply,no substance...just like sui bian come up wif a plot,put in handsome,pretty celebs n den sell the show...yar,in the end,pple like me go watch..haHa..but its CNY mah..loLx...spend a bit nvm lar...hmMMm...anw,i tot of changing my hairstyle..zaizai's type..!!!??!!!! lolX...still pondering..i actually have a few options..jay,vic or vanness....budden,jay one like so.....vanness one a bit weird..haha..thou nice..haha..dunno lar...not priority now thou my hair is growing really fast...!!!..hahaA...

yo,u know smtg? i bet u dun..lolX..alrit,i tell u har...doT dOt excavation is coming to towN!! haHa..no lar,i want to help out with the excavations at St Andrews' Cathedral..i found out about it on Sunday's Straits Times n it sort of rekindled my passion for archaeology..siGh...its been a long time since a touched history..still remember my 1st ambition...loLx..but i seriously think tat its quite fun digging stuff tat has not been uncovered for centuries!! haHa..n i tink i wanna learn archery tOO..loLx..must pay lar,n its on 4 sundays..i have to think abt it loH...listen to david tao's shIok arH...nice nice...yesterday after trng at McriT, a few of us went to eat at J8...den toked abt the game at nyp..waHHHaaahh...tat sucky game...den toked abt liza n her shouting...haiZ...feel sian when recalling all this..football should be a fun game and we should be enjoying the game,even if its the league or a friendly ..tats the only way we can perform better..i feel tat it is v disruptive when the last man just keeps shouting at practically the whole team...my mood to play just evaporates..but what can i say?? i admit that the midfield is the problem..we dun get back in time to defend n when we attack,no speed..but look at the strikers...anw,its not for me to worry anymore..coach bringing in more players,more strikers,more midfielders...practically more n more...but 1 hurdle before the AFC is the challenge cup..i hope i get more support from midfield with shiya n dunno who else lar...otherwise i will forever be stuck in tat similar state n pattern whenever i play for u19..the feeling just sarks u noe...i want to play for u19 the way i play for eb,or even better..at eb,no need any shouting or cursing,the game flows..at u19,everyone is new but u noe wat,i am not an advocator of shouting at teamates to get back in position.i dun scream my lungs out.tat way,i can't concentrate on the game..i dun care wat others think.they want to sack me as captain,i have no objection.just let me play the way i do. showing my attitude??haHa..give me a chance to..i can't be tat alwaz-too-nice,friendly,caring captain everyone c me as..as i walked off away from the rest after the nyp game,i can't help but wonder,why am i working so hard for the team?? well,i found out tat its because i love the team n want everyone to stay united. sometimes,well,actually its only after tat day at nyp where everything seemed to go wrong,tat i started to wonder if pple appreciate what u have done..whether they feel grateful...n i dun noe y oso,my opinion of some players changed..loLx..it just takes a sec,or an experience, to change my view of pple doesn't it?? hmMMmm..doesn't matter much anw..

alrit...pple whu haven't seen me for a long time all said tat i have lost weight,shrunk..grew thinner ALLOFASUDDEN...lolX...but when i c myself in the mirror...i still feel tat i need to lose more weight..especially on my face n waist..
haha...tis is definitely confidential manz...any1 whu reads tis....!!!!!....kaCha by me..lolX...anw,i have to keep to my healthy diet..have discipline...eat well...exercise...do weights..n all will be fine...hopefully...n of cos...have trust in GOD.he's the almighty..ok,supposed to watch magic kitchen at 7pm later but as usual,pple dun keep to their words n last minute...u noe...hate such things happening...but i can't control it..nvm..save $$$....not bad le,tis yr's ang pow $$..close to $300..haha..dUn roB me!!well,tats all lar...can't help it if frens dun wanna go out...

today sucked.i spent $24 on a dumb,nutrition-less,fcuking meal at BrekZ wif 1 fren wif it was supposed to be the class.money is not meant to be spent like tat.not so carelessly.not so wastefully.it is a terrible sin.i have not been strict wif myself on saving as i usually would have been n i have not been saving well according to wat i am supposed to for so many weeks.$20 to save,$10 to spend.i have not kept to tat for so damn long.i feel really pissed.the damn class was supposed to meet but in the end,so many couldn't make it,dunno who the damn hell organised tis,n i was left wif wanqi.i will never ever compromise my savings again.not wif these pple.i need to have a brain of my own n think for myself wats right,wats more impt.i need to find back my discipline.i seriously think that i am lacking tis.lost it i guessed.giving in to pple too much n putting them above myself too many times.i wonder how i ever changed.but from now onwards,its no more.i want back my discipline immediately n its only me whu can put it back.priority:football anything else will have to fall by the wayside.priority:money any expenditure will have to be seriously considered,giving the fact tat i only have $30 for my weekly allowance.tats way tooo damn bloody little but i can't complain.i can't expect too much.otherwise pple will think tat i am greedy,money minded,selfish.fuck.fcuk i should write.looks nicer.i have to change for the better.or shd i say,to my original self.no more COMPROMISING.no more of tat.i am really angry wif myself tat my efforts to meet up wif my long time frens always end up unappreciated.pple dun cooperate.i am not tat foolish to continue doing tat.i will not continue doing tat.

i am feeling pretty frustrated now.well,kinda of.i really need to practise hard on my kicking cos pple r improving while i feel that im static.i want motivation to carry on n at the same time,not feel stressed abt the whole thing.i want to enjoy every moment but i want results.i want the consistency in my technique.i want to be a complete footballer.my dislike for *** increases each time i c her.i just get pissed off by her character,attitude,behavior although i do know the reason behind how she is like n how she behaves.i have played football for 2 plus years n there are some things i still can't do consistently.im not happy wif tat cos i worked hard.sometimes competition is a good form of motivation.i dun believe tat i will lose to ***.not me.i know where i stand n i will continue to learn.i wun be complacent,i cant.but i hate to lose out especially to pple whu dun deserve to be better than me.i have to make it to china,not just make it but make it with my own standards reached.there are many things i have to learn n time is a constrain.on the field,i have to fight for every ball,every tackle n make good my chances.i heck care whu u r on the field,as long as u r my opponent,i will destroy u.i must get into the state of wanting to win,win,win n only win.i will beat ***.i know i can n i will.

yoyo!!1/1/04 is todaY..hah..not bad for a start to the new year.did exercises in the morn,ate quite a lot for lunch n pre trng meal..haha..but all strictly scrutinised before consumption lar..weeee...i tink tis blogger thingy is quite stupid..no one to read ur diary n have an online diary for wat...haha...y am i writing den..wahaha..