today sucked.i spent $24 on a dumb,nutrition-less,fcuking meal at BrekZ wif 1 fren wif it was supposed to be the class.money is not meant to be spent like tat.not so carelessly.not so wastefully.it is a terrible sin.i have not been strict wif myself on saving as i usually would have been n i have not been saving well according to wat i am supposed to for so many weeks.$20 to save,$10 to spend.i have not kept to tat for so damn long.i feel really pissed.the damn class was supposed to meet but in the end,so many couldn't make it,dunno who the damn hell organised tis,n i was left wif wanqi.i will never ever compromise my savings again.not wif these pple.i need to have a brain of my own n think for myself wats right,wats more impt.i need to find back my discipline.i seriously think that i am lacking tis.lost it i guessed.giving in to pple too much n putting them above myself too many times.i wonder how i ever changed.but from now onwards,its no more.i want back my discipline immediately n its only me whu can put it back.priority:football anything else will have to fall by the wayside.priority:money any expenditure will have to be seriously considered,giving the fact tat i only have $30 for my weekly allowance.tats way tooo damn bloody little but i can't complain.i can't expect too much.otherwise pple will think tat i am greedy,money minded,selfish.fuck.fcuk i should write.looks nicer.i have to change for the better.or shd i say,to my original self.no more COMPROMISING.no more of tat.i am really angry wif myself tat my efforts to meet up wif my long time frens always end up unappreciated.pple dun cooperate.i am not tat foolish to continue doing tat.i will not continue doing tat.