i am feeling pretty frustrated now.well,kinda of.i really need to practise hard on my kicking cos pple r improving while i feel that im static.i want motivation to carry on n at the same time,not feel stressed abt the whole thing.i want to enjoy every moment but i want results.i want the consistency in my technique.i want to be a complete footballer.my dislike for *** increases each time i c her.i just get pissed off by her character,attitude,behavior although i do know the reason behind how she is like n how she behaves.i have played football for 2 plus years n there are some things i still can't do consistently.im not happy wif tat cos i worked hard.sometimes competition is a good form of motivation.i dun believe tat i will lose to ***.not me.i know where i stand n i will continue to learn.i wun be complacent,i cant.but i hate to lose out especially to pple whu dun deserve to be better than me.i have to make it to china,not just make it but make it with my own standards reached.there are many things i have to learn n time is a constrain.on the field,i have to fight for every ball,every tackle n make good my chances.i heck care whu u r on the field,as long as u r my opponent,i will destroy u.i must get into the state of wanting to win,win,win n only win.i will beat ***.i know i can n i will.