hi again.can i tell you that i din go for trng today.can.can i tell you how im feeling now.i can't.it came like a gust of wind.and this gust of wind never seem to want to leave.it has nothing to do with skipping trng,although i initially wanted to really really go for trng.
everytime i tell myself that i have to just let it go.but when i encounter something real,im just thrown back to the past.like today.
is there a pill which really works in making one forget what one wants to forget?or is it that i do not really really want to let it go in the first place?are scorpios all like this????
i rem the feeling was undescribable just a sec after it happened.i was staring into space,recalling what just happened.recall once.twice.thrice.smiling at times.trying to stay grim at times.telling myself not to be stupid.how should i be feeling?
sometimes,damn sianz with myself.want it to be over once and for all.but still holding onto it.maybe.......i ought to work hard to get it back.then will i be able to break loose from all these buzz.
i don't know.
nobody knows.
if i don't know and nobody knows it better than myself.......it doesn't exist then.