i feel very frustrated!!! don't know why,all of a sudden.so decided to listen to jolin's dao4 dai4(composed by Jay!)...which sort of made me more frustrated,which in a way is good because i get to release all my frustration at once!!!!! *damn iT*
who can i tell???who will listen??who will understand?? *damn it*
know why i am blogging when i should be sleeping???cuz............eh............don't really know why...anyway,joleen was cha2 xiao2-ing me with her msgs(hee...=P) and............no,no,actually i enjoyed chatting with her until she said,i have to take a shower.fine.ahaha..anyway,i couldn't have explained my frustration or however i was feeling to her right??
siGH.
missed training today.did not feel guilty.not a good sign. *waGS finger*
somehow i feel like swearing.but that is not the solution to my problem!!! although in a way,indirectly,it releases the tension building up within me...damn it...sorry i know this blog entry isn't erm,mind challenging or makes u think a lot, but its my blog! damn it.i wanna have a say!!!
shit.going crazy again.pai seh.how to say sorry in malay?? =P
anyway,i really think im a great mood swinger.i can just be 360 deg of what i was just a sec ago.is that a good thing??of cuz not.wth is that qn.fine.
nvm.anyway, it was because i saw a few lines of words on someone's website which sort of penetrated into me.yes,but no,i couldn't see the knife which went thru.not even the flashes.
but i have to learn to get over things.which is something i haven't been able to do for a very x5 long time.damn it.
in 2 minds.that's not good.
does your left shoulder ache when u use the comp for too long???mine always does.does it have anything to do with growing older?wth.no,this is not a wise topic to blog.skip.


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