haiZ.I am feeling depressed.It came all of a sudden when I saw some words. I really cannot understand why the feeling is still there.Am I really going to be burdened by it for the rest of my life??? But on the other hand, I do not know if I want the feeling to be gone. haiZ.(purposely no caps.haha.)
I think feelings/emotions are really merciless.Really.You cannot have total control over them but they can have total control over you.You have to have massive mental strength to tell yourself that you will get over those feelings and throw them away forever. But they still keep tapping at your front door.
Luke left our church. Sunday was his last worship with us and having learnt quite a lot from him while I played the drums all these while, of course I felt something when worship ended on Sunday. Though I am not very close to him but I did felt sad. And this really happens many many times in our lives, where people around us have to leave our side. Some leave forever, some leave for a while but ultimately, they leave. And when they leave, the closeness that was once present will definitely fade away and disappear. Did i mention this before? Oh yes I did.Tracy right.(If you remember what you told me, JTRL.HeE.) I don't like it when people say, 'shi4 jie4 shang4 mei2 you3 bu4 shan4 de4 yan4 xi2.' I hate it. I hate the fact that people have to leave, whether it is just leaving your side, or death. I especially hate it when you no longer have contact with those people you were once so close with. But I cannot do anything about it, can I? Although I really wished i could.
Especially when it comes to love.haiZ. It takes so much to meet someone out of 4 million people. And in a split second, you can just lose that person. How sad.(not a sacarstic tone)
I failed my job test. I did not know how to use Adobe ImageReady to do those animations I was asked to do so,no job. I think I really have to speed up my 'learning softwares' campaign.haiZ.This whole holidays, I only finished Freehand and am now stuck with Flash and Photoshop.Photoshop simply sucks for me.I do not know why. Flash seems quite fun really. But the learning process is very slow.Maybe its me.Haha.(I think i sound too serious, so added a 'haha'.lolX.)

I wish for a time machine this Christmas.(not being realistic.fine.) Many times I asked myself if I want to go back in time.And the answer was always no. Now, I have doubts about my answer.
Maybe in my dreams.