aye.so much for nat day celebration.wth.can't be considered a celeb at all when we have to stand carrying our bags to sing.n i believe not even half of the sch pop was there.most of them were,unfortunately,non-singaporeans n not knowing how to appreciate the nation's bday,they couldn't keep their mouths shut when the nat anthem was played.nobody or very few sang n all i could hear were the recorded voices.i so very much wanted to sing out loud bt u noe,when no one ard u sings,u darent too.if u wld give me a gun i wld spray those bullets just for a moment of silence.meaningful silence.i really miss those sec sch days where all of us sang nat day songs so enthusiastically.waving those plastic flags,standing up n jumping arms over shoulders to sing.the atmosphere at Cedar was just too great to forget.even at TJC,it wasn't that memorable.and definitely,these schs have better n more efficient organisation in carrying out the celebrations compared to NAFA.wth.i couldn't even hear the nat day speech,the one speech which i often shut my ears to,and now,im yearning for it.n for my class,only 3 of us were present.2 just happened to chance upon the celeb cuz they 'din noe'.those who knew took the opportunity to sleep longer hrs.fine.i really felt so irritated by those pple ard me that i really started to wonder,is this really society's attitude towards things?? things as impt as the nation's bday?? i felt irritated also by the fact that im not able to feel the atmosphere i wanted every time this yr.sudden urge to go to NDP.haha.nv been there b4.sad rit.tsk.wonder how the atmosphere is like there every yr.too bad no one in my family is on abt it.haiZ.i rem my promise last yr.to make it to NDP this yr wif someone.hah.singing the nat anthem n looking up at the flag reminded me of China.exact same feeling.of disappointment.disappointment of the pple ard me,disappointment of our results.bt i really love the nat day songs.heE.brings emotions n all.
nv go trng today.duno what berd will say again bt i dun care.i really dun see the pt in gg down if i can't train.say i am stubborn or whatever bt that's how i feel abt it.so sunday,sub again.not a bad thing either.hah.or if dun get to play,then give me another gun ;/

count on me singapore!!! =)