that's joawen.aka piggy head 

yi fen wif moi 

ehem..realised that i haven't blogged for so long..pai seh...heE..anw,erm,as predicted,final projects coming up!!! ahHhhhh....50%...must think think think.....ok,that aside arh...
sunday got PC at Tampines stadium...8 teams only...we got 3..heE...bt i wldn't be surprised if there were upsets...lolX...shit.touch wood...i want a medal..erm,i mean the gold medal...hahaha..so NYP,ITE,RP........stay away!!! lolX..juz trying to intimidate ok..hee.. =p luckily tmr no game so must mug at home.elmo said me mugger.she mugger too know!mug during breaks,recess,lunch...mug whenever she can!haha...like me.. =X
bt its just me.hard to change.not sad case ok.rem in sec sch,or since sec1,when i have any free time like recess or break or whatever,i wld alwaz be doing smtg.smtg useful lar..i cannot dun do anything.n most imptly,if u r my fren,u have to noe this ok.i hate to wait!!!!! i hate wasting time waiting n doing nothing.or doing smtg that is so unimportant.time is more precious than money!!! okokokok.....hee.like very ba4 dao4 hor...humph.. =P
ai yar.tired k.wanna go dreamland.BD project on fantasy.dream of fantasia tonite!! lolx
last nite i dreamt that smone wanted to kill me n two of my,ehem,sisters.then we were like running for our lives! damn scary ok.! i like leaped down the spiral staircase from so high up.ran towards the exit.out of the building.took the first bus i saw.n nv looked back.damn scary!!! i cld feel my heart thumping so fast when i first opened my eyes...it was so real!! n that dream got me into a not so happy mood.first thing in the morning.lolX...kk..tired tired....see ya in my dreams....=)

eh..hmMmm...how to say it...i wanna be happy!!! wanna think of happy stuff!! do happy things!! things that i like!! be wif pple that i feel comfortable wif!! meet up wif old frens!! play floorball!! be the best designer ever!! know that RG better!! listen to songs that rox!! win medals!! trophies!! take away all the negatives!!!! skydive!! wakeboard!! play gateball!! bt most importantly,appreciate those ard me.those who deserve my appreciation,care and love.heE.
today's trng was a fluke for me.bt nvm deh.i know today is my off day.i can do better!! definitely!! couldn't wake up this morn on time.think having eye bags liao..lol..a little bit only lar...use eye bath,elmo said.haha.i wanna be happy!!!!!think these few weeks gonna have many projects liao.cuz need final project to grade.so since i have 6 subjects,shd be 6 projects rit..hopefully not! lolX..
had my first comment on my artwork..'looks like erotica!' =_= guess who said that.........~~~~~ kaka!!! haha..ok..din take it to heart bt damn farnie..n i laughed.guess who has a sexy mum.....~~~~ nor!! kaka shuo deh..lolX...
tmr morn no lesson.heard that the teacher took 1 month mc.seh.serious illness i heard.wah..like so sad..if its true.just saw her last week n she was so well...aye.pple can just leave this world in the next sec.bt no lar,i tink she shd be fine deh.she's a painter.artist.her works sometimes along the linkway to esplanade from citilink.free go see see k...her name...erRrr...actually...nvm lar..the nicest one is hers! lolx...quek *********** i dun noe.lolx.
im actually doing stupid things to make myself give up on some things.bt dun blame me.i really wanna get rid of it once n for all.n sometimes i just become too forgiving.so need to constantly remind myself.bt its for a good cause definitely.

elmo!
hao2 leng3 orh.......(you are hearing cynthia n dorko's voices) =D

Deep down,inside our bodies,lives the soul.No one has ever seen it,but we all know it's there.Not only do we know it's there,we know what's in it, too.
Inside the soul,right in the very middle of it,there is a bird standing on one foot.This is the soul bird.It feels everything we feel.
When someone hurts our feelings,the soul bird runs round and round in pain
When someone loves us,it hops and skipsup and downbackwards and forwards
When someone calls our name,it listens carefullyto hear what kind of call it is.
When someone is angry with us,it curls itself into a balland is silent and sad.
And when someone hugs us,the soul bird, deep down inside,grows and growsuntil it almost fills us.That's how good it feels when someone hugs us.
Deep down, inside, lives the soul.No one has ever seen it,but we all know it's there.Never, never has a person been born..who didn't have a soul.It sparks the moment we are born and never leaves us-not even once-for as long as we live.It's like the air that people breathe from the moment they are born until the time they die.
Do you want to know what the soul bird is made of? Well, it's really quite simple:it's made of drawers.These drawers can't be opened just like that-because each is locked with its own special key!Only the soul bird can open its drawers.How?
Ah, that's quite simple too:with its other foot.
The soul bird stands one one foot,and with its other foot..(tucked under its wing when it's resting it turns the key to the drawer it wants to open,pulls the handle, and lets everything inside- out!
Because there is a drawer for everything we feel,the soul bird has many, many drawers:one for being happy and one for being sad;one for being jealous and one for being content;one for being hopeful and one for being hopeless;one for being patient and one for being impatient.There is also one for hating and for being loved.There is even a drawer for being lazy and one for being vain.And there is a special drawer for your deepest secret -which is hardly ever opened.There are other drawers too -whatever drawers you dream of.
Sometimes you can tell the bird..which keys to turn and which drawers to open.Sometimes the bird will choose especially for you.Like, when you want to be silentand order the soul bird to open the silence drawers.
But the bird decides all by itselfto open the talking drawerand you talk and talkwithout even wanting to.
You want to listen patiently,but the soul bird opens his impatience drawerand you become impatient.
Sometimes you get jealous without meaning to.And sometimes you get in the way when you only want to help.The soul bird does not always do what it is toldand gets things in a mess.
By now you've understood that everyone is differentbecause there's a difference soul bird deep inside.The bird opens the happiness drawer each daypours happiness into your bodyand you will be happy.
But if the bird opens the anger drawerhe will be angryuntil the bird closes the drawer behind him.
A bird who feels badwill open up the drawerswhich make you feel bad.
A bird who feels goodwill open up the drawerswhich make you feel good.
Most important is to listen to the soul bird,because sometimes it calls us and we don't hear it.This is a shame- it wants to tell us about ourselves.It wants to tell us about the feelingsthat are locked up inside its drawers.
Some of us hear it all the time.Some almost never.And some of us hear itonly once in a lifetime.
That's why it'a good idea -maybe late at night when everything is quiet -to listen to the soul birddeep down inside us.

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so its back to square 1.empty-handed there n back.sOOOooo sooOOoooo disappointing.Li JiaWei lost to a so-called table tennis player who plays boring table tennis.that wasn't table tennis at all!!!!
Pesta Sukan sucks/sucked! 4th.wth.
like s***.

so heartbroken.now i really rather i din see that at all.or that u din appear b4 my eyes from the start.

so sad....i really tot Singapore cld get its first Olympic medal since 1962...i tink it was becuz i watched the quarter final game that's why Susilo lost.i din watch the previous 2 so he won.i do have this weird feeling sometimes b4 a big game that if i watched it,the team or person i support wld lose.craZy tot.bt dunno why i do have this type of thinking.so its now down to Li Jiawei n Zhang Xueli.1am tmr morn..really wanna watch...tsK.facing the Chinese n N Korean.how???? smtimes it really gets so exasperating when u keep losing all the time...u just start to think,when will i ever get the chance to experience the sweet victory of winning???? Being an Olympian must be such a great experience.bt those who are already an Olympian wld say that winning ur first Olympic medal wld be such a great great achievement.so watssup manZ...u can never get satisfied wif urself.
today was a tiring day.sculpture made my hands all red cuz had to twist thick n thin wires wif my bare hands.insufficient pliers.n made me realise that doing art is such a waste of materials.aluminium foil.had to use that to shape the form of our sculpture.n lots of that.lots.so wasteful i feel.n many other things too.as little as masking tape.bt very wasteful.so wasteful that i can't bear to use them.2nd lesson was printmaking.that acrylic sheet thingy which i scrapped so tirelessly last week.yeah,did the inking today.din turn out as nice as my sketch.its alwaz like that for printmaking.whatever u sketch,wAh very nice,bt once u transfer it to another medium,lower quality liaO.did 3 pieces n then just sat on the chair staring into space cuz damn tired liaO.still have to clean up the place every time.siaNz 1/2.
do u think this cold war will last longer than the US-RUssia one?? hMmmmm..i dun think so...i dun think even the bird flu epidemic which just happened yesterday or was it the day b4, wld last longer than that.haha.nonOOnoonono...i can't live without chicken meat!! heEE..had fried chicken for dinner..n eggs too...i was like thinking,erm,wasnt it just this morn that i read abt the bird flu thingy n here am i eating fried chicken for dinner...quite weird to me..haha..ok,not very funny actually...bt dun deprive me of chicken meat toO long ok...ons arh...
sort of can't wait to get back to trng on Friday.sometimes when im on my way to trng,i do get nervous.like there's something awaiting me bt i do noe that its trng bt den i get so nervous, or is it excited i dunno.anw i do get an unusual feeling when im on my way to trng n its just uncomprehendable to me.like what's there to be so nervous or excited abt trngs???yar yar,butterflies in my stomach...although by 5pm my stomach wld be damn empty.heE.this sunday got pesta sukan.i wonder why this name??there's like pesta sukan for quite a number of sports too..*wondering* back to SAS.like gg back to the past.a place in the past.haha.am i blogging for too long??? lolX...
i wonder if there's a remedy to help reduce the feeling of "missing someone". pls donate to the needy right here.thx.

Striving towards Singapore's first Olympic medal since...... =D

the more i listen to 孤单北半球 , the more i like it leh....wahahaha....must be influenced by brother n angelino...cynthia also singing this song..lolX....wth is wrong wif us...=O
the cold war hasn't ended..yaY..
had my pp presentation today...wahHHhh....first period of the day n 3rd person...damn nervous....arrived in sch at a little b4 10.class at 10.30.den i like read thru my notes a bit..bt dun wanna read too much oso...cuz will only stress me up too much..heE...so,1st person presented,not bad lar,although i couldn't really keep up wif what he was saying...2nd person....then... ME!!! omgoodness...sidetrack a bit,i realised smtg...when i feel damn nervous,i tend to smile a lot..hahaha...when the 2nd person was presenting,i kept smiling to myself n when i was told to go upload my presentation, wah lah,i like was smiling all the way...dunno wth osO....bt its a good thing rit..heE...yar,i sat down to present u noe..cuz the 1st person set the pace so the 2nd also sat so i sit oso loh...at least that makes me a little less nervous...greater inertia u see...if i were to stand,i think i wld keep wriggling my legs..can't stand still...heE...yar,so i had 10 mins bt i exceeded a bit cuz like i din go v fast..but quite ok...n the whole room was silent when i presented so like i cld only hear my voice,which smhow seemed so loud....Oops...n i think cld hear the nervousness in my voice...i tink lar....bt pronounciation ok! hEe...den after each presentation,the teacher will try to give some comments...den she said me no eye contact wif the audience...piang,ok lar,quite true...thou i got look up sometimes...sometimes only..heEe...bt im so damn glad its over..!! like a stone being thrown off my back...so for the following weeks,just have to sit there and listen to presentations...haha...not bad to start n end early rit.....just have to get back the nervousness n the rest is just....weEEEeeee.....
2nd period was visual elements....for my first project i din really know how to go abt doing it cuz like..erm....dun noe what the teacher really wanted....then for the second time just now,could get on more smoothly....n enjoying it too!!!! weEeeeeEee...now i love visual elements.....eh,as long as the teacher doesn't cancel off too many parts of my workpiece....bt still, it's hard work...brain draining...haven't finish yet leh...got 3 pieces to do...
tmr got sch excursion!!! like primary sch arh....ahahah...nope nope..we gg to SAM to erm,i tink study art pieces??!!!?? wed my free day deh leh....haiZ..bt nvm,get to learn smtg i hope...like,how to appreciate an artpiece thoroughly....n how to interpret the intentions of the artist....how the artist was feeling when he was painting that piece of work...blah blah....
still wanna play floorball!!!arGH.....
joawen msged me...wanna meet...surely wif yifen n grace...haiZ...oOoold frensS.....of cuz hope to see them again...siGH..
after hearing 孤单北半球 for a few times continuously,i am starting to dislike the song...his singing isn't that gd huH....

hi.its saturday again.time really passes v fast.erm,for an art student yes.for those brains in sciences,maybe not.later got drum practice.just now finished doing 1 art piece.know what i had to do?? had to use a sharp object to scratch out my sketch onto an A3 acrylic sheet.so i scratch n scratch until my fingers went so red n numb n ta da! done liao.haha.bt most imptly the final result must be gd rit...still have to put it under a machine n use ink to get the final art piece.fun n tiring work.so shd i be smiling or tsking?? leave that to after i see my final work...haha...
wanna play floorball!!!! have been procrastinating abt it since dunno when....n now,i wanna play!!! =D
next tues got pp presentation.... =_= dunno leh,can't wait to get over n done wif it,yet dread that very day....aYe...anw still have to do it right...lol...
owen to real!!! can't believe it....wth does he think he's doing??? sigh...he's just a pawn like any other madrid player.....or chelsea player...wanna sign many many many big names.ultimately can all the big signings survive??? i think it's really stupid of these players to sign for clubs esp like chelsea where they are already soOOo many big big names n saturation is over 100% liao..wanna fight for a place they may think...they may feel confident that they can survive under the intense competition bt ultimately,u get to play lesser n lesser....owen gd enuf for real??? i dun think so....that's his prob huh....
game tmr...so dying to win...esp this game vs u23...we dun deserve to lose...unless.....well.....we have to win!!! aye,they are soOOo many things which i cannot say it out here....hmMMm....my inner thoughts which i dun want just anybody to know bt.....angeline u noe lar har.....lolZ...
all the best to BA!
ok lar,leak a little only......cuz damn angry when i tink of it n wanna vent it ooOut!! im fighting a war now...cold war with B.dun wanna give in cuz not my fault.he knows very well who was spouting rubbish.n i know very well that he isn't gonna keep his overflowing heaps of rubbish to himself.fine.bt God knows.very well.

me 

feeling depressed.i tink im suffering from mood swings.let me listen to some slow songs can.
no wonder there's this saying, ji4 mo4 de4 ren2 zong3 shi4 xi3 huan1 ji4 mo4 de4 an1 wen3.
tmr class till 8 oso.am i repeating??haha.so what if im repeating.huMph.

let's end on a happy note k.say cheese!!! =)

dead beat.class ended at 8pm today.wahHH...all of us damn tired nearing the end of the lesson cuz the whole time kept drawing n drawing n drawing.n drawing got time limit deh! first time.10mins then 5 mins then 3 mins then slowly decrease.so must draw damn fast n so i anyhow loh.smtimes anyhow oso artistic deh ya noe.heE.really leh.i tink i did quite ok lar.the more i drew the more my left shoulder ached.aye,ageing liao.den still got drawing HW.wah,i need a break so now online.heE.
take this course got lots of extra expenditure.like buying materials n stuff from artfren.den everytime wanna claim from dad so pai seh.cuz like $20 over n i noe lar,cannot anyhow spend.haiZ.bt i bo bian rit.if i dun claim my allowance v pathetic..i oso dun anyhow spend deh.only on lunch n cab.cab is after trng take deh mah.cuz faster den got more time to do HW when reach home.haiZ.this one cannot giam deh.time=money.
just now claim another $20.no end arh,he said.
oh yar,abt my haircut.went to $10 for 10mins QB for the first time.first time liao,the hairdresser wanna show me attitude liao.cuz she can't understand what i want so show her sulky n arrogant face.wah lah,bt can't p*** her off mah otherwise she anyhow cut wo si liao.so just ren............bt end result,ok lar.not so bad.
thurs got lesson till 8 again.cuz must make-up for monday's.wah lah.n its lecture somemore.sianZ.nvm,at least its lecture,not more n more drawing.ahahaha.act me not bad student k...im just sulking lar...lecture jiu lecture loh...no BIG deal wat..ahaha..
jay chou's songs damn nice k...the more i listen the more i wanna listen..most importantly,must read the lyrics to fully understand the beauty of his music...then got more meaning mah..otherwise u just listen n can't make out the lyrics so bo liao rit....yar...that's the way to enjoy his music...haha..like i so pro hor...heE...

tmr got driwwwwing.....driwe.... =D

at class.cool red.heE.new hairstyle leh.got notice?? 

public hol today bt very sian.i tink i wld be stuck at home the whole day.hmMM..what abt ya?? heE.can only count down to NDP n Singapore Idol.really curious to see what farnie n foolish "imaginative" stuff singaporeans can come up wif..hopefully curiousity doesn't kill the dog.haha.
i promise! next yr gonna get tix for NDP.heE.hMmmm...my National Day wish.....ermmM,that every singaporean wld be loyal to the country.yeah.yaY! yar,n not take this few days of hols to travel to neighbouring countries lar...celebrate in ur homeland!!! =D
after every game on sunday,alwaz take bus home wif cyn.n sometimes gwen.dunno y bt i do look forward to the trip home wif them.haha.
saw nuriah's nicey nicey boots.wahHHHhhh...siao liao...same as az's budden....x leh..for me...aye...im really getting so itchy now...isH..nonononono,rem how many pairs of boots ya have ok...ahaha...
k lar.sian diao.hope to hear more nat day songs on radio today..heE..

wanna noe ya better =D

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
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The quality that most appeals to you:	High Social Status / Wealth
In a survival situation, you:	Scream for help
Your hidden talent is:	Spiritual wisdom
Your gift is:	Fearlessness
In groups, you:	Observe others' behaviour
Your best quality is:	Your sense of humour
Your weakness is:	Your coldness
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How to make a Dorcas

Ingredients: 1 part competetiveness 5 parts self-sufficiency 5 parts instinct

Method: Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add a little lovability if desired!

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How True Is Your Love

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest??
-It isn't love, it's LIKE.


You can't keep your eyes or hands off of her, am I right??
-It isn't love, it's LUST.


Are you proud, and eager to show her off??
-It isn't love, it's LUCK.


Do you want her because you know she's there??
-It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.


Are you with her because it's what everyone wants??
-It isn't love, it's LOYALTY.


Are you with her because she kissed you, or held your hand?
-It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.


Do you stay for her confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt her?
-It isn't love, it's PITY.


Do you belong to her because the sight of her makes your heart skip a beat??
-It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.


Do you pardon her faults because you care about her?
-It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.


Do you tell her every day she is the only one you think of?
-It isn't love, it's a LIE.


Are you willing to give up all of your favorite things for her sake?
-It isn't love, it's CHARITY.


Does your heart ache and breaks when she's sad?
-Then it's LOVE.


Do you cry for her pain, even when she's strong?
-Then it's LOVE.


Do her eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
-Then it's LOVE.


Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you to her?
-Then it's LOVE.


Do you accept her faults because it's a part of who she is?
-Then it's LOVE.


Are you attracted to others, but stay with her faithfully without regret??
-Then it's LOVE.


Would you give her your heart, your life, your death??
-Then it's LOVE.


Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we love?
Why is it all we search for in life? This pain, this agony?

Why is it all we long for? This torture, this powerful death of self?
Why?
The answer is so simple cause it's...LOVE.

david tao is so handsome!! i just found out loh.this pic of him was what struck me.haha.then see the pic below it.that's me leh.look like him rit.ahahahahahaahahaha.....

oops.just trying to relax b4 game.hee.

omgoodness.so handsome. 

like me??haha.. 

aye.so much for nat day celebration.wth.can't be considered a celeb at all when we have to stand carrying our bags to sing.n i believe not even half of the sch pop was there.most of them were,unfortunately,non-singaporeans n not knowing how to appreciate the nation's bday,they couldn't keep their mouths shut when the nat anthem was played.nobody or very few sang n all i could hear were the recorded voices.i so very much wanted to sing out loud bt u noe,when no one ard u sings,u darent too.if u wld give me a gun i wld spray those bullets just for a moment of silence.meaningful silence.i really miss those sec sch days where all of us sang nat day songs so enthusiastically.waving those plastic flags,standing up n jumping arms over shoulders to sing.the atmosphere at Cedar was just too great to forget.even at TJC,it wasn't that memorable.and definitely,these schs have better n more efficient organisation in carrying out the celebrations compared to NAFA.wth.i couldn't even hear the nat day speech,the one speech which i often shut my ears to,and now,im yearning for it.n for my class,only 3 of us were present.2 just happened to chance upon the celeb cuz they 'din noe'.those who knew took the opportunity to sleep longer hrs.fine.i really felt so irritated by those pple ard me that i really started to wonder,is this really society's attitude towards things?? things as impt as the nation's bday?? i felt irritated also by the fact that im not able to feel the atmosphere i wanted every time this yr.sudden urge to go to NDP.haha.nv been there b4.sad rit.tsk.wonder how the atmosphere is like there every yr.too bad no one in my family is on abt it.haiZ.i rem my promise last yr.to make it to NDP this yr wif someone.hah.singing the nat anthem n looking up at the flag reminded me of China.exact same feeling.of disappointment.disappointment of the pple ard me,disappointment of our results.bt i really love the nat day songs.heE.brings emotions n all.
nv go trng today.duno what berd will say again bt i dun care.i really dun see the pt in gg down if i can't train.say i am stubborn or whatever bt that's how i feel abt it.so sunday,sub again.not a bad thing either.hah.or if dun get to play,then give me another gun ;/

count on me singapore!!! =)

eh eh.know y im online now??? haha.cuz have no inspiration for my theme!! blank.for printmaking,have to come up wif 4 A4 sketches.the theme i chose was THE END TIMES.yar,bt now can't think of anytg lar.hai ya.den suddenly feel like blogging.feel.
went to another sinseh just now.jtrl intro deh.like so damn fast $20 flew off my wallet.he massage the tendon area,said is tendon injured.not the bone or what.the latter was what the Seah sinseh said,or did.like did some bone twisting or whatever.haiz,dun noe who is right also.alwaz like that deh.sianZ.den can't train for 2 days.what wld that berd think?? dun go for friday trng sure kana again lar.sianz.im really getting impatient n tired of eb.or BA.heE.i mean the club,not football itself.for now,just put that aside n conc on league.bo bian.smtimes i really wonder,why wld i want to play for such a coach??? den i think,am i really playing for him or for myself or for the club or what.....i dun noe oso...bt i know,not exactly for him bt for the reputation of the club???? dun noe lar...really wan to try floorball.shd try a sport which uses an equipment instead of body parts.
tmr got nat day celebration! woW.i hope its exciting n fun.love the singing of nat day songs part.n the anthem n the pledge.manz,feel damn patriotic.din really expect NAFA to hold such things.since its NAFA n not CEDAR or TJC.haha.bt i noe tmr such got lots of hw deh.so must try to finish the sketches by today..think think think!!!!!!
tsk.die liao.i tink i nian4 jiu4 too much.bt i can't help it.siGh.i ought to be happier.

yay.my tagboard is up.heE.tagboard still better hor..ahaha..
later got sch.. *yawN* dun look forward towards the journey to sch bt the lessons quite ok lar..haha..no trng today so feel more relaxed..haha..gonna get jay chou's album today!!!! hahaha...so excited..
woke up this morn feeling so not smiley..heE..dunno exactly why...like so ******* someone...ai ya,dunno lar...smtimes wan to forget oso diff...sianZ...how to say leh..i dun noe...den dun say loh..haha..
shd i go to the sinseh again???? that same injury still there..bt seriously,i tink that that sinseh is no use deh...went so many times for my past injuries bt none recovered properly until i went to others...bt berd paying mah...ayE...
have you ever wondered how weird n sad it is to wake up one morn and find that ur life is forever changed....for e.g, the morn after a *****-**....like suddenly it struck you,oh,things are not the same from now on...n then everything sinks in,includ depression...or on the more positive side,the morn after you told someone you **** that person...haiZ....
dun like to take train to sch leh!!!! tsk....still must walk quite a long way....
angelino,im really curious abt ur mysterious person noe....*scratches head* can't think of who it is cuz.....haha..no lar...anw,tell me angelino milo is straight ok...=P

pple!!! ai ya,due to my lack of IT knowledge,dunno how to put tag board in properly loh..once i put the board in,den my posts all gone..too sian to fiddle anymore lar...haha...got any tags just go to add comments at the end of each post ok....
still wanna read all ur tags.....heE..

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