now i know.dun trust anyone so easily.actually i knew this all along at the back of my head but just din constantly remind myself.so today,i got reminded.hah.nvm,i have learnt my lesson.even though someone may be nice to you for a period of time,at a split second,all of that can change.humpH.
anw,went for interview today.SMU.not as bad as i thought.me last minute wanna U-turn but haiz,just go lar.30 min essay + group interview.it was a discussion in fact.SMU classroom style.so got to know what its like to have tutorials at SMU.we discussed about "scholars=good entrepreneurs?" so all of us have to tok.luckily i had something to say.den QnA session.COMPULSORY to ask qns,otherwise no plus points for urself.humph.i din say i wanna study in SMU anw what.lol.i just went to try try only.why did i even apply SMU in the first place?? parents loh.but ultimately,i want the decision to be my decision.its my life.its such a big thing that i really need to think carefully.i need time to think.i havent been thinking much abt this since i returned from China.but today,i really thought hard abt what i really wanna study.it is gonna affect my whole life.n i thought really really hard.i called up NAFA.they said my application is confirmed.gonna get THE LETTER soon.maybe tmr.anw,doesn't mean that i got into SMU what.i really heck care what others are gonna say or think abt me rejecting NUS n SMU.they must be thinking im damn stupid,dumb,an idiot.i can really imagine n do think about what others wld say but that's just a passing thing.its me ultimately.my life.my decision.n it had better be good.its not like u will lose face if you do not get into U.but that's society.
today's trng was like omgoodness.so many pple.so little space.n i tell u,i was like so lost.unfamiliar wif playing 5 a side.feel lost today can.but cannot feel lost on sunday! damn it.its tournament day.n i wanna win.haha.n i was misfiring.everywhere! so frustrated wif myself.sicKo.oh well,as long as i do not misfire on sunday.huMph.
tired.hopefully the outing tmr would be a real outing.not like 2 or 3 of us.sianz.n i dun even noe the exact time n venue.see lar,weichern,ronggui,poor organisers!!! haha.they wun be seeing this anw.gotta buck up u guys!! atTentiON!!!! at your feets!!!!!.........up!!!! =P