do u think it is possible for impossible to be impossible?lolX...i did transcribing for my mum yesterday..means like have to convert conversations into words..get paid de lar of cuz...not bad loh...althou my shoulder started to ache again after some time...must type fast n accurately..hAha..cannot use short forms like "tis"...loLx..must step pedal...must this must that..so ma fan..hAh..but at least got something to do at home n get paid! its not that i dun wan to go out find work but just thinking of it,i dun wan to do those type of boring jobs..admin,sales,data entry...give me something bigger...haH..i really dun want it to happen but its happening...im getting sick of training..everytime i tell myself,its for a greater cause...stick with it..but somehow i just have to pull myself up for trng..i really dun like this feeling..i should be enjoying myself..i need some motivation!! argh..i wonder how many times i blogged saying i was tired of trng..am i being too impatient or what..aYe..n the blardy weather really just kills my mood u noe...wah lau..i tink i need greater control over my mood swings n emotions...sometimes i get so pissed off with myself over small things n it just spoils the rest of my day..with the damn humid weather,heavy rain or hot sun,i just feel like staying home the whole day long..is this change?in me? arGH...*biSH* i need to relax manZ...i need to enjoy life!!!!!! ok...took BTT yesterday nite..at ubi..cool manz..soO many people..i guess i was the only 18 year old ard...n the only one without a BTT bk...the only one not frantically revising at the last minute..hahA...i really sort of just didn't want to bring the bk lar..hEE..not overconfident..but just tat,u noe,sometimes u have that certainty in u that u can just do it...haHa..so fun manZ..seeing the damn strict instructor but feeling tat he is just purely acting strict..haHA..i tried not to laugh...the classroom was nice..really..haHa..long time since i stepped into a classroom..but i like the tables n chairs there..Lolx...aircon tOo..haha..i finished in abt 40mins..my dad said he timed me!!haHA..dunno for wat oso..heHE..cuz i checked n checked mah,make sure first time must pass!! =) i tink can lar..confident manZ..! FTT seemed a little less easy thou..haHa...but dunno y i had a strange feeling after i finished my test,walked out to the carpark to meet my dad who was waiting for me n got into the car..it was this unfamiliar yet longing feeling i had when i walked to the car...seeing my dad standing by it...maybe its the lights of the lamp post..maybe its becuz it was at night...maybe it was the quietness of the street...but i felt so happy with myself n so fortunate to just be present at that moment...hmMMm....haHa..maybe a psychologist could tell me what i was missing in my life all the while that led to this strange feeling...oops...i tink i do have an idea but...can't express it in words..haHa...oh yeah,this sat get to play Lawyers Society female team...AGAIN?? no,haha,cuz i missed the game that time...! hEe...so fast...saturday is like coming again..i rem last sat being only a few days ago...oh my....time really flies now...why??haha...whu can really answer my qn....friday=mcCafe??haHa...discipline dorKo!! =I