I realised that i am actually a very fortunate person.Many things happened recently, to me and to people around me, some of whom i do not even know, and i realised, i am actually very very fortunate. Let's see why i say so. . .
1. I am fortunate to have an uncle who owns a SLR.Out of the blue, we need one for photography and as you know, an SLR is not cheap. I did not even realise that i have a SLR at home in the drybox( i even have a drybox!) and its a Canon! Many of my friends do not have the luxury of owning one even. See.
2. When i asked Dad to buy me a new roller chair from IKEA, he did not say much at first. Last Sunday, I whispered to brother that we suggest going to IKEA after church, in a way as to hint further to Dad that i want that chair. Before we even left for another destination after church, Dad just said to me, you want to go to IKEA? . . .speechless.i was surprised, as well as touched. Of course, i did not say it out.as usual. And later when Mum found out that Dad bought a more expensive chair for me, she complained that Dad already did not have much spare cash and still he bought something i did not really need. Actually, my old chair is really dirty and old. Got paint marks still. See.
3. I see many different people when i travel on the train. Apart from the many which made me stop to think abt my life, today, i saw an old lady. She isn't really old, but the moment i saw her, the first thing which caught my attention was her eyes. They were so sad! Can you imagine, sad eyes? maybe its also due to her eyebags which were sagging and made her eyes sad. Even her expression, which is like the expression you have when you aren't feeling anything particular, that expression, makes me feel sad for her. And i started to think abt how i will be like when i grow old. will i be alone? will i lose purpose in life? i think at some stage, all these will happen and i will start to really feel the need for a God to believe in. to rely on,to know that there is still someone you can trust 100%.although i have a God, and i know he's 100% trustworthy, i know i will lean more towards God as i grow up. Somehow, i hate to see lonely old people. So sad. the worst thing in life is to have no purpose in living. I really think it is great to be young.Now. You have a purpose in life. you have people ard u. So i turned my thoughts to my parents and grandparents. Will they feel the same? that they are starting to lose purpose in life? because it can really happen to old people, i believe. i can imagine myself. that made me realised that actually, i am not very close to my grandparents although i do visit them every night. but for dinner only. other than that? am i doing something extra for my grandparents? like bringing them out shopping? do things they like? drive them around? the connection just isn't there yet.although i do want to, somehow i am not sure.
4. I saw another lady at the train station. She has a permanent difficulty in walking. from my observation, i notice that her lower right leg, below the right knee, is in such a position that it is slightly away from the normal straight position and because of that, she has to sort of limp as she cannot bend her lower leg as normal. i couldn't play football if i was like that. i couldn't play sports. who knows，maybe she was an athlete when she was young.and something had to happen. she even has the courage to go to Orchard on a saturday where everywhere are crowds hurrying in different directions, and here she is, struggling to walk as fast as everyone else. See.
5. I am so fortunate that none of my family members have any hereditary or serious illness which may spread generations. in fact, i can consider that most of my family members are pretty well physically. even my grandparents. and they are still alive. 3 out of 4.
6. I am so fortunate that whenever i need money and whenever i ask for it from my Dad, or Mum, they are ABLE to provide me. i can understand when some children ask money from their parents even for sch stuff and their parents cant provide. now that i know i have stable financial backing, i should know how impt it is.and who knows how long it may last.
7. when i asked for an allowance increase from my Dad, and it was only a casual remark, he gave me immediately the next week. See.
8. My Dad pays for my hp bill, my concession of 45 bucks every month.i used to pay for my hp bills until brother got a hp and he paid them all together. even my mum's.and his own. See.
9. I know that one day i have to pay all the electrical, water ... bills and this scares me. but Dad can do it.for so long even.alone.
10. I am 2 desktops at home.1 laptop.some households do not even have one.
11. when i asked Dad to buy me a digi camera, he was nice to say ok. because he thought he could claim it from his company.in the end, it was not possible. but he didnt really grumble. and im glad i own a digi cam. essential tool. See.
There are many other things which makes me realise that i am very fortunate indeed. Sometimes, much more than my fellow friends.
I only have God to thank.
Thank him for giving my a great family.
although all is not perfect, and i still have wants, wants are uncountable. everytime you finally owned something, there is always one more thing you want.
do not say 'want'.say 'need'.
that's when things on your 'i want' list get striked off.
I NEED.
