just came back from football trng.have to say that i felt so good.during trng.as time passed.everything was so good.not that i was performing very well.average i guess.n B kept me pondering over the 'good news'.lolx...well,no.3 is playing nssl!haha.i can't wait for st soccer trng sessions at TG.and to see old frens coming back to play again,though B said sharon,nola,aloong and those who do not come for trng aren't gonna play for eb...
the weather was good too.raining b4 trng.slight drizzle.then cool weather.very nice. =)
and the sky was nice to stare at too.a little grey.nice clouds.great wind.perfect setting.
i really hope that it wouldn't rain on 13/3.haha.then what would we be playing on??erm...high-tided plane of sand.or is it sand lumps.lolx..
today was first day of assessment.felt quite relax cuz i know i have done my work.but dunno why,everytime b4 we submit our stuff,pple would start asking heart-jerking questions which ur ears would immediately expand so as not to miss any single word.for e.g. 'eh!need folder not har???' and 'oh no!must mount meh??need to put layout pad not??'
i really try to shut those things out of my ears but they just automatically expand upon detecting the threatening sound waves that are approaching.well,all these sort of makes me anxious and triggers my brain to think, 'did i do that?sure??' and so on...
well,i admit i din use a folder today.ok,it din occur to me yesterday.i think its a dumb idea to pile all our stuff up and squeeze i-dont-know-how-many classes into 1 classroom.why can't they do it like last term???i prefer to display my work and not see it hidden under a huge pile of folders. and yes, my plastic file(that a2 artfren grey thing) was torn by i don't know who....was angry..
during the break,went wif jas,jean,yl,naz,darryl n ww to mac n to arcade!!! played datona!!! well,i only won once and the other times i was wrecked out of 1st place by who else but JEAN.wp.she just crashed into ma car at the last sec and......fine,she got 1st.lolx...but it wasn't a bad thing either.we must learn to give in to one another right.(like real)
tmr,it was planned that we are to go KBox in the morn and watch a movie in the afternoon.well,i ought to watch my pocket.i mean my spending.wp,they all jio me go KBox i really damn pai seh singing in front of pple...ok,i know thats really really bad bad english.
but i really find it embarrassing singing in front of pple.lol.
just pray that all things would go well tmr..no last minute/sec heart-wreckers pls....
met xiaomin twice today.well,sometimes i feel that the further u r from someone,the closer u r to that person.the less often we meet,the more we feel closer when we get together.so weird.but so fascinating.this heart.feelings.no wonder they make us confused n helpless at times.
i hope to get back that passion i once had for football.not that i do not have it now,but it has sort of diminished.dropped in position in my priority list.nonetheless,who doesn't want to play good football??not me.

Yesterday afternoon Franca Temujin wrote and asked: "Have you
ever noticed that when you learn a new discipline--printmaking,
sculpture, painting, etc., if you're in the right frame of mind,
you bring with you such freshness??How can we maintain that?
That openness to new material--innocence--can it last forever?"

Thanks for that Franca.?Seasoned artists know this as not just
a problem--it's the main problem.?As the pessimist said,
"Everything palls, everything perishes, everything passes."
Remember well your first kiss, first sip of wine, first work in
a new medium.?

Some ideas on innocence and freshness can be found in "Zen Mind,
Beginner's Mind" by Shunryu Suzuki.?He talks about Right
Practice, Right Attitude, Right Understanding, and other
Buddhist basics.?"In the beginner's mind there are many
possibilities, in the expert's mind there are few," he says.
This resonates with many artists.?And so does its opposite.
"In the beginner's mind it's all pretty simple, in the expert's
mind there are too many ways."?I've been marooned on both.?A
long time ago I set myself the task of finding a specific
mindbender to deal with the problem.

Suspecting the value of wonder, I wondered if I could put myself
fairly permanently in a state of wonder.?Can I do this??How
will it turn out??What miracle is this??This point of view, I
thought, might be insurance for ongoing creation.?With a little
twist of an already twisted mind, the daily paint became itself
a wonder--from the mystery of pigment to the wonder of
canvas-carried forms.?I realized that my daily work, even the
day itself, had to be always reinvented.?Dumb curiosity was the
key.?

Where curiosity stops, boredom begins.?For me, boredom was
deadly.?Strokes, I found, could be all the same--or they could
be all different.?It was a matter of attitude.?Mixtures could
be deadly and predictable, or they could be laden with
surprises.?All subtle differences, all subtleties, had to march
in the direction of change--often minor, seemingly
inconsequential change.?It's a bit like watching the growth and
development of a child.?In order to alert your creative soul to
wonder, you need to be simple and keep your eyes wide open.?As
in a first kiss.?It's all a first kiss.

Best regards,

Robert

PS: "An artist must actively caress wonder: for fascination,
like the desire to play, can be eradicated by the rigors of
living." (Eric Maisel)

Esoterica:?"Wonder is the effect of novelty on ignorance," said
Samuel Johnson.?Maintaining a sense of novelty is key to the
creative process.?Today, as you read this, I'm starting a two
day workshop with what looks like 30 terrific painters.?In my
demos and crits I must remember not to reach always for my
time-worn bag of tricks, but rather to feel in my deep soul that
the best of art is experiment and invention.?Life is experiment
and invention.?May the Goddess Muse give us all innocence.?"I
never get tired of the blue sky." (Vincent Van Gogh)

童话

忘了有多久
再没听到你
对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久
我开始慌了
是不是我又做错了什么
你哭着对我说
童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂
从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局

just came back from trng...not really a lot of pple but quite ok.it was pouring at one stage.and i suddenly felt nostalgic. =S
yar,has been a long time since i played in heavy rain...unfortunately, it wasn't the same grp of pple anymore.haH.
tmr morn got another trng session
sunday got game
one pair of boots
one pair of shinpads
what to do??
=X(correct expression???lolx)
anyway, im really excited abt 13/3!! beach soccer tournament in the morn till afternoon.den have to go down to queenstown for CC match. i really love 1 day tournaments! cuz i know at the start that at the end of the day,there may be smtg waiting for me,which is of course,the prize! n if my team wins of cuz...haha...i dun really like league games..haha..i like small side games..u get more of the ball...like st soccer..im really excited!!
for now, assessment is coming up.time really flies.have lots of stuff to do.want to complete all the projects once and for all.first time using freehand/photoshop to submit projects.is this a challenge or deterent?lolX...have got to get used to it anyway..
but assessment week is cool.cuz we just have to submit our stuff n do nth else but loiter in the library or search for other forms of entertainment b4 we can collect our stuff.the build-up to assessment week is quite tense though.nothing must go wrong!! embrace the pressure!!!
my football mood is like a rollercoaster.starting to get sick n tired of club football.maybe i just wanna play 1 day tournaments..hahahaha...but again,i want more than that..lolx...
The Os cant join dorkO on 13/3 but nvm...beach football is fun! sand,sea,sun...get tanned! =) and hopefully, get to meet old time frens again! yup! managed to get lin,nola,shiya and maybe ct...sharon can't make it thou..*walking down memory lane*
went for the free health screening in sch..by NKF...
shall i reveal??? lolx...... =X

i wanna continue drumming..haven't been touching the drumsticks for more than a month..sigh..i miss drumming...any one got lobang??? hee..

grp pic...fooling ard as usual..lolx. 

thunderbolt 

3 v 1...lolX. 

weEeEee!!! one v one.. 

watch my toe! 

You may be aware of a condition called "Selective Mutism."?This
is where children are afraid or unable to speak out.?Shy and
silent at school, they are often normal at home or with others
they know and trust.?It's a rare condition related to social
anxiety that sometimes carries over into adulthood.?Sufferers
are often creative and artistic.?

I've always been interested in the relationship between the use
of words and the private world of hands-on creativity.?A lot of
us have found that too much talk kills projects and neutralizes
the need to accomplish.?It seems that monks and nuns who have
taken vows of silence have clearer concentration and the
facility for steady work or study.?While talk can stimulate and
even motivate, it can also take a toll.?I sometimes run into
folks who talk about art so much--and everything else as
well--that I know there will never be much of a place for art in
their lives.?My alarm sounds the loudest when they talk
brilliantly about the art they're going to do.

Is it possible, I ask myself, that by simply blocking the mouth,
expression might be more likely to come out of the hands??Is it
possible that some would-be artists are just talking too much??

Here's an exercise that certain artists will find golden.?It's
called "Voluntary Mutism."?Choose a four-hour period.?Permit
no human intercourse--unplug the phone and snuff the email.?Put
a sign on the door.?Arrange for a terminal event such as an
alarm or a timely shout from a true friend.?With soft or
ambient music only, let yourself loose in a space of verbal
deprivation.?This goes for self-talk too--and it takes a bit of
practice.?There can be no mouthing, aloud or silent, of
personal plights or anxieties.?You can do this by concentrating
on good nouns like "umber" and "filbert."?It's amazing how many
nouns you can find just lying around the studio, ready to be
picked up and flicked about.?Just concentrate for four little
hours on the business of making stuff.?It's not like you're
going into solitary for twenty years.?If you must speak, do it
with your animal.?Try to use nouns like "rough" and "bark."
It's better that way, and the animal understands how you're
trying to improve.?She's really a mute too.?That may be why
she's so highly evolved.

Best regards,

Robert

PS: "The stronger and more intense my desire becomes to capture
and record that which is unsayable, the more tightly my mouth
stays shut." (Max Beckmann) "Be as one that knoweth and yet
holdeth his tongue." (Ecclesiasticus) "Create, artist, do not
talk." (Johann Wolfgang von Goethe)

Esoterica: Art teachers who would also be artists have unique
challenges.?Coming down after a day of words may take a
decompression chamber.?For some, a meal, a change of clothes,
or a blast of loud music does the trick.?For others, a darkened
room with a concentrated Zen-like mantra may be necessary.?Some
art instructors find a daily transition to the worker mode
almost impossible and must wait for holidays or sabbaticals.
Others are stimulated by the interaction in classes and are able
to take added joy to their private process.

have u ever heard of this phrase...'i mug hard on weekdays so that i can slack on weekends.' yup,now u seen it so dun say u dun noe this.that's doRko for U.mugging so hard now so that i can enjoy my CNY hols...is this life for doRko?? maybe.actually it has always been this way.ahahaha.yesterday we won 10-0.lol.no fun.i had the last goal cuz it was penalty.lol.no sweat.=P but i din go for the whole week's trng that's y only played 1 half n it wasn't a great half at all.shan't elaborate.haiZ.
ok,im not here to pour out my sorrows ok.in fact, i hardly have any for now.ahaha.so U r spared.lolX. saw the adidas n nikefootball web sites this afternoon.damn pro.i felt so jealous.ahaha.well,i mean,so in awe.cuz it was so creative n so pro.nvm.doRko shall master flashmx soon.lolx.
miss the Os family!!! sigh.its been like so long since we last met....not to forget jtrl oso.ahah.(lest she says im dao again)...(but hey i forgot what dao means..lol)
esp elmo.like so long din hear from her...E_L_M_O!!!!!!!! =)
k.that's all.sianZ.tmr morn got trng....but i will go! =D